mendsley Posted October 27, 2013 Posted October 27, 2013 (edited) My head is all over the place. I'm so angry, sad, confused and numb. My son and I were shopping at Wal-Mart and sure enough I ran into her. I said hi and she asked for a hug... so I gave in. Well the hug turned into a long ass hug and my punk ass started to tear up a little and so did she. My mind was no where to be found. I told her how much I miss her and and I hate this crap we're going through. I told her I just don't understand, but I respect her decision. Well she said this break would be very good for US, well in my mind I'm like "F*** that! This is only good for you, I'm going through so much pain just for you to figure out if you want to even stay with me." Well, once again, my brain isn't fast enough and I told her I was not seeing anyone and would wait for her decision before I dated. Then I ask if she felt the same way and of course she said yes. I really feel like crying, which is good, but I also feel like calling her... which is bad. I'm NOT going to call her, but this little run-in screwed my head/progress up pretty bad. It amazes me how someone who appears to care little for my emotions has so much power over MY emotions. I know, I know... don't give her that power. I try so hard not to, but my subconscious is weak. I'm such and idiot, I should of told her that I really don't want to have a relationship EVER, but nooooo my heart spoke for me. I'm about to have a panic attack so I'm going running. Just needed to get this out of my head and start the healing up! Peace Edited October 27, 2013 by mendsley
JoelBarish Posted October 27, 2013 Posted October 27, 2013 Sounds like you are just venting. I've ran into my ex recently too. I know how you feel. It's not fun.
LuvsTrucks2 Posted October 27, 2013 Posted October 27, 2013 I'm sorry you had to go through this. I'm dreading the time when I run into my STBXH out and about.
AnyaNova Posted October 27, 2013 Posted October 27, 2013 I want to run into my ex with a car I think I'm probably going to hell for liking that. Just make sure said desire remains in the abstract. :-) 1
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