TheMoonBug Posted October 23, 2013 Posted October 23, 2013 Hey everyone, today would of been me and my ex's 2nd anniversary. I have been feeling like real **** today, and I'm not entirely sure why. He loved his video games more than I did, to a point where he hid his gaming addiction from me. I found out, obviously. And I asked about it he would lie again and again! He once asked what would make me happy, I replied that I wanted him yo graduate school and find a job. He never did either while we were together. Stupidly, I even got a six-month-late birthday card from him saying, "I'll stop at nothing to make you happy." About two month after I received this card he abandoned me after a night of fighting. No goodbye, no I love you. Nothing. He was so lazy, it astounded me. Being with him I became really depressed, actually bed-ridden with depression. I sacrificed hobbies, my future plans, everything to be with him. All we did was play video games. I made him so happy, and it sickens me to know that he seemed okay with me being depressed. Since he left me I have moved to another town with no friends or family. I've been dealing with a breakup, taking care of myself, being completely alone, starting a new school, and trying to break out of my depression. Why am I so sad today? Today I miss him! Why! Please someone just try and either say something that'll help me through all of this mess. Be mean, be inspiring, I don't care. I don't want to think about him anymore, I wish I never dated him!
TylerDurdenn Posted October 23, 2013 Posted October 23, 2013 He's a loser, find someone with a bit if ambition. 1
Assasda Posted October 23, 2013 Posted October 23, 2013 You would take him back in a heart beat. But youre doing a good job of fighting it. Because not everything that you love, is good for you. 1
ponchsox Posted October 23, 2013 Posted October 23, 2013 This guy needs to learn how to become a man first before he is ready to date someone. You don't need his problems in your life. 1
AnyaNova Posted October 24, 2013 Posted October 24, 2013 Instead of a swift kick in the ass, I recommend a nice warm tropical retreat. To a place in fantasyland that you will work to make reality land when you are emotionally ready, (but dream this in vivid color and detail) where you are living in a beautiful house decorated to your and your new SO/husband's tastes, wherein both he and you have real jobs, real lives, real and healthy independence, where you take care of each other, when the other needs it, and come together not to complete yourselves, but to experience the joy of joining together. Imagine the job, the stability, the security, and the reliability. In extreme detail. (And gently push away any thoughts about how that's never going to happen, tell that voice it can express its concerns later). Back to the fantasy. Spend as long as you want. Return as often as you need to and can tonight of all nights. There, didn't that feel good? For a moment. To abandon the pain of now, and imagine the future that you want to make happen and that you will make happen? To know for a second through your imagination what it is like to be really loved by someone who deserves you, and who you deserve? 1
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