Double punch to the gut

[NightOwl49]

My ex and I had a passionate relationship but it was rocky. It was both of our first love, and we were heavily invested in each other for two and and a half years. Things ended in May of last year, and there has been minimal contact since. We are both in our mid-twenties.

 

My dad passed away suddenly three months ago from complications associated with cancer treatment. My ex came to the funeral and it was the first time we had meaningfully communicated in a long time. We thought we could see each other in friendship settings but in reality it can never worked and he's made that clear. He can't get hurt again and I don't really blame him. But it just hit home really hard how alone I really feel these days and how crazy it's been to hold on to false hope for so long.

[AnnaAnna]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is hard at any age.I hope you have people around to keep you occupied.

It's hard to move on and let go when you have so much hope.

I wish I could tell you how to but I have no idea. I wish there was some kind of magic trick to help us but unfortunately we just have to give it time.

Put yourself first and take care of you for now. Get out and keep yourself busy. It helps a lot.

I hope you feel better.

[JoelBarish]

I can relate to you NightOwl. I lost my dad too. It's been awhile but the loss never goes away.

 

I think that it was touching that your ex cared enough to go to the funeral. Many of those of us on this forum wish our exes were that caring towards us.

 

It is hard losing your first love. I can tell you that it's also hard losing your 3rd or 4th love. I do think that after awhile you begin to see that love can happen again even if you keep losing it.

[Mr Scorpio]

I'm sorry to hear your pain Nighty. That is indeed a double-punch. I hope that one day in a few years you'll be able to look back with pride on the adversity which you've overcome to reach the point you're at then.