mendsley Posted October 20, 2013 Posted October 20, 2013 I've posted this before on separating, but it helps me to get it out and plus I think coping is more along the lines of where I need to be. My girlfriend of two and half years moved out last weekend and the last couple of days I'm realizing she's serious. I was all for her to move out, since I'm not going to sit around and beg her to stay. Well me being mr tough guy was a stupid reaction. I'm on the opposite side of the tough guy spectrum. I don't ever cry, but today I tried to force myself to cry since I know it will help with the pain. I wasn't able to do it, but I know it's what I need. The last couple of days have been hard, but it's because I broke NC yesterday and poured my heart out thinking it's what would change her mind and she would run back into my arms... WRONG! I felt good during the moment, but when I realized she wanted to move on without me I was crushed. It was a huge blow to my emotions, my selfish idea backfired. But, in actuality it needed to happen. I need to understand that she wants to move on and I need to do the same. I feel really horrible today and this helps me, so if I'm rambling I apologize. I have an appointment with a counselor tomorrow which I'm very excited about. I love the idea of a biased person helping me through my issues. I have some things lined up with my son today so I can get out of the house, but I know I'm going to be a damn zombie all day and I feel bad he has to see me like that. I try very hard to make sure him and I are not affected by my situation, but it's hard. Well thanks for listening and have a good day
TylerDurdenn Posted October 20, 2013 Posted October 20, 2013 Good luck mate, I'm going through the same..
Author mendsley Posted October 20, 2013 Author Posted October 20, 2013 Thanks man, I'm sorry you have to deal with this as well. It's not fun!
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