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I always have been an independent guy. I was always okay with being alone, doing my own thing. Until I met the girl who I loved more than anything. We were extremely close and she admitted that we were a perfect match. We would joke around all the time. I have never laughed so much in my life, never smiled so much in my life, never been happier. She had to move to a different country for an year so it became a long distance relationship. It was really hard but I did EVERYTHING I could to show her that i cared. It is the 10 month mark now, only 2 months more to go. I am an engineering college student, an Army soldier and I also do MMA so I am quite busy. I still found time for her....then days where I would sit in my room, after skipping MMA practice, waiting for her to get on skype that we planned out. I thought she was just busy, so I would usually leave a message like "Guess ur busy!! Hope ur having fun, love you!! xoxo" Or something like that. Next thing I notice, if i let it, we wont talk for days. It seemed like she didnt care. My heart sunk. Everytime we do talk, she tells me she has to go. Im not stupid, I wouldnt be surprised if there is another guy. She is beautiful. Now Im here, literally feeling this intense pain in my chest, cant stop crying, and literally have no motivation to do anything else. I look at myself and I am ashamed. It shouldnt affect me this much. I expected this. Its gone to the point where I cant drink anymore, cus when I do, I will repeatedly punch a wall till my hands are mangled and broken. My grades are tanking. I am numb and I cant get the image of her with someone else out of my head. How can I move on? I know this is a frequently asked question, but Im losing this fight and I feel like if this keeps going, I might have to throw in the towel.

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You need to take a step back and realize your life can't revolve around another person, and you can't let any single person have so much control over your emotions.

 

Pick yourself up and focus on yourself and what you want out of life. If things work out with this girl, great. If not, you can't sabatoge everything you've done so far. No relationship is worth sacrificing personal growth.

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