AnyaNova Posted October 15, 2013 Posted October 15, 2013 (edited) I know that I'm low on magnesium and so my brain chemicals are a few shades short if a crayon box, but it is not good. It's not really about the relationship or the breakup, so much as my visiting friend had to leave today. And that brought back everything regarding the death of a friend last spring, and my ex's decision to completely remove himself from my life and I have more I need to get done before tomorrow but all I can think is that line from the song, "Everyone goes away in the end." I know it is stupid. My friend leaving, who usually tries to get here once a month, does not equate to death or the complete separation. So why is my brain acting like it is? Edited October 15, 2013 by AnyaNova
JoelBarish Posted October 16, 2013 Posted October 16, 2013 Hi Anya. I saw a woman at a restaurant wearing a name tag that said "Anya ". Is that a Russian name by the way ? I am sorry you are having such a bad day. At least it is not as bad as last week when you broke NC right? I can't say what is wrong with your brain. My guess is that your just human like the rest of us. So what will make you feel better? Halloween is coming up, do you have plans? I'm watching a tv show where the people are putting a puzzle together. My ex and I did a few puzzles. I doubt her new guy would do a puzzle with her. Anyway, back to you. Have you taken your bubble bath yet? I know you said you have a new "plate". Be careful. I know you miss having someone, as do I, but I would hate to see you get hurt again when you are not fully healed yet.
Mr Scorpio Posted October 16, 2013 Posted October 16, 2013 It isn't "stupid". It may just be the way you are. There are plenty of things that will act as "triggers" for me if I allow them. They are too numerous to mention. Even when I was with my ex, I would find reasons to sink back into depression. It can be like a warm, comfortable, and familar blanket. These days, I'll whine to myself about lack of free time due to school. At the same time, I acknowledge that, without the busy schedule, I'd spend more time fretting because I didn't have anything to do. At any rate, hang in there, and keep posting.
Haydn Posted October 17, 2013 Posted October 17, 2013 Anya is the Hungarian word for `mother` But i am sure it it could mean something else as well in so many languages. I am sure your chemicals are not off. You are in love. I read somewhere once that love is a virus. In the early days its so strong and eventually the body fights it off. I hope whoever said this was wrong because i do still believe that loving someone is the best feeling in the world. Even if they treated you like ****. To love is incredible. Everything becomes a walking cliche! Hope you feel better. Haydn
Author AnyaNova Posted October 18, 2013 Author Posted October 18, 2013 Hi Anya. I saw a woman at a restaurant wearing a name tag that said "Anya ". Is that a Russian name by the way ? I am sorry you are having such a bad day. At least it is not as bad as last week when you broke NC right? I can't say what is wrong with your brain. My guess is that your just human like the rest of us. So what will make you feel better? Halloween is coming up, do you have plans? I'm watching a tv show where the people are putting a puzzle together. My ex and I did a few puzzles. I doubt her new guy would do a puzzle with her. Anyway, back to you. Have you taken your bubble bath yet? I know you said you have a new "plate". Be careful. I know you miss having someone, as do I, but I would hate to see you get hurt again when you are not fully healed yet. Actually, there is the possibility. No new relational plates have been fired yet. :-) It is actually (though I am not Russian), and if the truth be told, my mother had a choice of two names she was going to name me if I was a girl (which obviously, I turned out to be) Anastasia, or my actual real given name that she went with. My actual real given name there is nothing fun that you can do with. Where as you could be Anya, Stacey, or Ana, and that's right off the top of my head. So, in a way, its what I wish she named me, but I also like my given name, it is kind of the one that I know. My brain chemicals do play into this alot, because of some health issues that I have, I often don't get all of the particular whatevers I need for the happy-happy chemicals. But not consistently enough for antidepressants to be needed or helpful. I am doing much better today (and thank you for answering), sometimes when I post one of those "doing badly" threads, I don't always have the strength and the energy to immediately reply, but I do read them, and they do help! I guess, consider this a thank you. :-)
Author AnyaNova Posted October 18, 2013 Author Posted October 18, 2013 Anya is the Hungarian word for `mother` But i am sure it it could mean something else as well in so many languages. I am sure your chemicals are not off. You are in love. I read somewhere once that love is a virus. In the early days its so strong and eventually the body fights it off. I hope whoever said this was wrong because i do still believe that loving someone is the best feeling in the world. Even if they treated you like ****. To love is incredible. Everything becomes a walking cliche! Hope you feel better. Haydn Is that what it means, wow. :-) I actually am pretty sure that they are, since other things that even through the most painful parts of this make me happy, don't when they are off. That is not to say that there isn't "stuff" and "things" from the whole ex situation happening. To love is incredible. To be loved is incredible. When it is shared and mutual, it is the most amazing thing in the world, second only (and maybe not really second) to coming up with a truly new idea. 2
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