fml1995 Posted October 15, 2013 Posted October 15, 2013 (edited) Alright this will be pretty long but ill try to keep it short but i really need advice and thank you. So i been with this girl since i was in middle school and we started from online dating and shes totally opposite of me in wealth wise. her family is pretty rich and has morals as my family is crap compared to hers and as we been together and dating online we both role play like we are in an anime( i know its nerdy) and i never really did that before so i role play sex with a couple other girls on the site but it never felt like i was cheating on her but to her she took it as that so our relationship started having problems and one day we asked each other if we wanted to really date irl and not this role play stuff so we made clear we are together and no cheating on each other. alright so thats the beginning story so im skipping to now lol now we been together for 5 years and over the years we still been long distance but still skype and call each other but as i was in high school a girl showed up and we started hanging out and been got together and i told my long distance girlfriend and all she said was "well i its ok i just wanna be with you in the end" and at that point i felt like she didnt really care juat was cheating on me so i continued my relationship with the other girl and i promised my long distance gf that i wouldn't lose my virginity yet i did to the other girl but it wasn't a passionate moment it was a Halloween night and we had only like 3 min to do it witch we didnt finish lol but after we broke up a couple months later but i been talking to my long distance gf at times still and when i finally realized that i actually liked her and these emotions started pouring in she changed and started crying and saying hateful things and we lasted still but lots of problems. so over time she started pushing me away and saying hurtful things like the fact i had sex and though it been about a year ago when i did that she still bashes me for it so as i felt pushed away i started talking to one of my friends back in middle school and i cheated again and had sex with her twice....so now as of today we are together but every 20 minutes she changes thoughts and feelings toward me like sometimes she says we have a beautiful family and grow up living a great life that she forgives me for what i did then like a couple minutes later or hours she bashes me and yells at me saying im disgusting. we broke up like 4 times but always end up back together because we call each other and both cry on the phone and say we need each other. we have lots in common and i know we are the perfect couple but now i haven't cheated on her for a couple months now but she still has that changing thoughts toward me and i tell her i cry and hurt from thinking about what i did back then and she says i should feel great since i got what i wanted but that's not true. idk why but im hurting lots like she is and i do love her and realize she is the one for me and that 5 years ago i was a kid and im older now and can change but she doesn't believe that. we have so many good times and both are just emotionally destroyed but she doesn't believe me at all since she has no trust for me anymore but everything i say now is true. what do i do? how do i show her i love her and im serious? we tried leaving each other or just taking a break but never works. (also we are still long distance. we never touched each other in person yet) i know its all mixed up and like i said im not all that smart(laugh all you want) but i really need help and if you need better explaining please ask Edited October 17, 2013 by a LoveShack.org Moderator
nerdlingZA Posted October 16, 2013 Posted October 16, 2013 Alright this will be pretty long but ill try to keep it short but i really need advice and thank you. So i been with this girl since i was in middle school and we started from online dating and shes totally opposite of me in wealth wise. her family is pretty rich and has morals as my family is crap compared to hers and as we been together and dating online we both roleplay like we are in an anime( i know its nerdy) and i never really did that before so i role play sex with a couple other girls on the site but it never felt like i was cheating on her but to her she took it as that so our relationship started having problems and one day we asked each other if we wanted to really date irl and not this role play stuff so we made clear we are together and no cheating on each other. alright so thats the beginning story so im skipping to now lol now we been together for 5 years and over the years we still been long distance but still skype and call each other but as i was in high school a girl showed up and we started hanging out and been got together and i told my long distance girlfriend and all she said was "well i its ok i just wanna be with you in the end" and at that point i felt like she didnt really care juat was cheating on me so i continued my relationship with the other girl and i promised my long distance gf that i wouldn't lose my virginity yet i did to the other girl but it wasn't a passionate moment it was a Halloween night and we had only like 3 min to do it witch we didnt finish lol but after we broke up a couple months later but i been talking to my long distance gf at times still and when i finally realized that i actually liked her and these emotions started pouring in she changed and started crying and saying hateful things and we lasted still but lots of problems. so over time she started pushing me away and saying hurtful things like the fact i had sex and though it been about a year ago when i did that she still bashes me for it so as i felt pushed away i started talking to one of my friends back in middle school and i cheated again and had sex with her twice....so now as of today we are together but every 20 minutes she changes thoughts and feelings toward me like sometimes she says we have a beautiful family and grow up living a great life that she forgives me for what i did then like a couple minutes later or hours she bashes me and yells at me saying im disgusting. we broke up like 4 times but always end up back together because we call each other and both cry on the phone and say we need each other. we have lots in common and i know we are the perfect couple but now i haven't cheated on her for a couple months now but she still has that changing thoughts toward me and i tell her i cry and hurt from thinking about what i did back then and she says i should feel great since i got what i wanted but that's not true. idk why but im hurting lots like she is and i do love her and realize she is the one for me and that 5 years ago i was a kid and im older now and can change but she doesn't believe that. we have so many good times and both are just emotionally destroyed but she doesn't believe me at all since she has no trust for me anymore but everything i say now is true. what do i do? how do i show her i love her and im serious? we tried leaving each other or just taking a break but never works. (also we are still long distance. we never touched each other in person yet) i know its all mixed up and like i said im not all that smart(laugh all you want) but i really need help and if you need better explaining please ask Lol how old are you ?
Simon Phoenix Posted October 16, 2013 Posted October 16, 2013 Next time break it up into paragraphs. Very few people are going to read that wall of text. I couldn't get through it.
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