Janni Posted October 24, 2013 Posted October 24, 2013 After the confrontation, I was feeling cheated - because he had cornered me, at my place. I know, I know, I could have decided to not answer the door or not talk to him. As mentioned before, he only wanted to talk about what he felt was relevant. When I started to ask questions, he got ready to leave. I sent him a useless text - to which he replied some bollocks, like it was good to see me and talk to me, until I bursted the bubble. One of my friend posters - thank you, DRG - mentioned he might have been a commitment phobic, so I've started reading about that. Guess what, the whole "cannot be with you, cannot let you go" is one of the characteristics. So I've grouped together some of the most striking similarities between a "commitment phobic"'s behaviour and his, took a picture and sent it to him. Never heard from him since . And... in addition to that, I've continued my gym routine and guess who passes right in front of me, on Sunday ? No "hello", no nothing. I must have struck gold with my last text . Of course, I've ignored him. Anyway, let's continue with the progress: - ballet class, yesterday; loved it, it's a lot harder that what I remembered! - attended a salsa party, briefly, tonight, despite it being held at the same place where we both used to hang out (told you I am not hiding anymore) - work's going well, taking back the control, start to function almost normally It's weird, I know it's only been a few days since the "confrontation", but I think reading those things about commitment phobic people's behaviour made me accept that it was over. Every time I miss him or start thinking about him, I read that page again. I swear to God, it makes my blood freeze inside my veins, the reaction I get is so violent. Now that I get to do some sport, I want to find some interesting books, to occupy my mind, as well. My sister and her ex got back together, two of my closest friends are in relationships, with Halloween coming, it's a bit tough to be by myself. And I really don't feel like dating. I'll try a Reiki class tomorrow - supposed to clean my energetic body ! Wow. It sounds great. Congrats to you! And how awesome is his reaction to your text. Haha. Continue this way! You are doing great. I feel envious. 1
Author candie13 Posted October 24, 2013 Author Posted October 24, 2013 Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. Hopefully it'll go even better, in a few days. Obviously, a bit down. I'm thinking to myself I should have been smarter and seen through his lies... but how can you discover a liar, when the liar lies to himself as well as those around him ? Or... when you want to believe him ? I need to find myself a Halloween costume these days. I'll be out, with my gfs, for Halloween. Most of them are in couples, so I'd better find myself a skimpy outfit and some nice wine, so that it passes more swiftly !
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