crazy1234 Posted October 10, 2013 Posted October 10, 2013 (edited) Hi guys,I cant seem to cope with my feelings who i loved for 5 years on and off until i finally saw he is not the person for me and it still bothers.I was reading this article that said to write down my feelings and it should help to move on.I wrote everything i feel and hope to share it with you. I feel pain, betrayed and disbelief of how someone could be this heartless.I did everything and he made me belive it was alright to trust him again.He said he wont leave me alone again yet he did that and to my worst of fears he left me for someone else.Mistreated me for this new girl who he hardly knew for like a month.I cant believe how he put his relationship status on fb right after he told me abt this new girl and went up to different places with her introducing everyone to her saying she was his girlfriend. Despite not wanting to do it,everyday i try to understand how could someone be so rude?I fail to understand how he fell out of love.I never cheated on him,always was a royal partner whereas he always lied and cheated.I stay in shock everyday when I try to understand how could this be.But i also come across the question that can i really blame him?can I really blame someone for falling out of love and feelings getting changed?and if not then why is life to unfair to me and so fair to him?Why isnt the equation of love not so simple where one person has given everything to tne other yet the partner cant feel or see any of it? I cant understand why life is so fair to him and he has been still dating her till date.Its been 8 months and I cant understand why is everything to perfectly working out for him and not me?I feel disappointed and anger when I assume that maybe it was worth leaving me. I dont understand how he could be this heartless and gave something to someone only I worked for.I dont understand why he never put his status in a relationship with me.I fail to understand everyday how could he had mistreat me for someone else.I dont understand how life and God could be so fair to him and not to me. Edited October 10, 2013 by a LoveShack.org Moderator 1
headinthecloud Posted October 10, 2013 Posted October 10, 2013 This is really hard, I know, I'm there too. How can someone who you see as kind and good hearted to so many be such an ******* to you. It doesn't make sense! They say we settle for the love we think we deserve. He is and always be a cheater. The sooner you accept that and realize you deserve an honest man who treats you well, you'll truly let go and make your life better. There are good and bad days. Write it down, share all your anxieties and disappointments here. You're not alone. You will get through this. You deserve to be loved, but you have to start first by loving yourself. Focus all that energy on yourself now. Be strong.
Author crazy1234 Posted October 10, 2013 Author Posted October 10, 2013 This is really hard, I know, I'm there too. How can someone who you see as kind and good hearted to so many be such an ******* to you. It doesn't make sense! They say we settle for the love we think we deserve. He is and always be a cheater. The sooner you accept that and realize you deserve an honest man who treats you well, you'll truly let go and make your life better. There are good and bad days. Write it down, share all your anxieties and disappointments here. You're not alone. You will get through this. You deserve to be loved, but you have to start first by loving yourself. Focus all that energy on yourself now. Be strong. Thankyou dear for reading this whole thing.I know its lengthy but i thought maybe someone who can relate to it will surely continue to read the rest.I am trying to be strong and hopefully i will be fine someday soon and find my person.However it comes back to me all those mistreatment and lies for this girl while i cried and begged him to tell me what was it that went so wrong.Yet all I got was his cold tone.Life is unfair i guess.I just want this pain to go away and you hang in there too.We will surely make it through.
Mz_sassy_77 Posted October 10, 2013 Posted October 10, 2013 I was with someone on and off for 3 years. I was in shock at our last break up. Granted he didnt cheat on me but a very very short time after we broke up he did sleep with someone else. He lied to me and played a lot of games too. I was the same as you questioning how someone who claimed to love me could be so heartless. How they could move on so fast. Time does make it easier I think and eventually you will move on from this. You will still bear the scars but you will move on. I was eventually able to say to myself this guy is just an areshole. And that made it a lot easier for me to make the decision that I am going to move on. You need to realise that you deserve a lot better then this. If someone truly loves you they wont treat you like this. He's not worth it. Dont let him win.
Emma1234 Posted October 10, 2013 Posted October 10, 2013 So strong of you to write it all down. He sounds so undeserving of you it's ridiculous. I hope you can see that, if you can't now I'm sure you will when you're through this and when you meet the person who treats you properly none of this will matter.
Author crazy1234 Posted October 10, 2013 Author Posted October 10, 2013 So strong of you to write it all down. He sounds so undeserving of you it's ridiculous. I hope you can see that, if you can't now I'm sure you will when you're through this and when you meet the person who treats you properly none of this will matter. Emma1234 i finally wrote it down on a paper.I;v done everything possible to make peace with it and accept it bt nothing worked so i thought what harm might this do?so yes i wrote it down with courage.Jot it all down on a paper and said it once and for all.He is undeserving of me love and I see it now.Its just the hows and whys that still wake me up in the middle of the nights.
Author crazy1234 Posted October 10, 2013 Author Posted October 10, 2013 I was with someone on and off for 3 years. I was in shock at our last break up. Granted he didnt cheat on me but a very very short time after we broke up he did sleep with someone else. He lied to me and played a lot of games too. I was the same as you questioning how someone who claimed to love me could be so heartless. How they could move on so fast. Time does make it easier I think and eventually you will move on from this. You will still bear the scars but you will move on. I was eventually able to say to myself this guy is just an areshole. And that made it a lot easier for me to make the decision that I am going to move on. You need to realise that you deserve a lot better then this. If someone truly loves you they wont treat you like this. He's not worth it. Dont let him win. dear mz_sassy_77 i know it hurts real bad.We should just hold on and let go.Time will hopefully fix everything for us and fill us with joy and happiness.Soon there will be someone to love us and yes soon none of this shall matter at some point in our lives.You should too forget about this person and try to move on nomatter how much it hurts.Thankyou for reading and writing this to me:)
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