What's she playing at?

[iUzername]

Well, hi there !

 

It's my first post on these forums, so I think it'd be quite suitable for me to introduce myself. I'm Mustafa, Iraqi origin, but living in the Netherlands. If I may say so myself, quite attractive, good sense of humor, sporty type whilst being extremely smart and following a course in psychology.

 

I'm not the player, but have no difficulties in handling a woman, whilst I could've easily had more, I've only had 4 relationships. I truly fall for a woman after I drop my guards.

 

Now here's the thing, my 3rd gf had a boyfriend when I met her, but we hit it off amazingly. I know her, she isn't the playing type. So I was on the side for quite a while, 'till I was fed up having to fix everything that mofo kept breaking. I asked her to choose, and even though she loved me truly, she chose him. I was hurt, yeah, but couldn't blame her. We're practically identical and made for each other, both of us confirm that, but I was just too late.

 

Now that was 2 years ago. I'm the 'all-or-nothing'-kinda guy, so I wished her the best and backed off, but never forgot her. 6 months later, I was chilling with a friend and I see her. We talk and I'm back to ground zero, extremely in love (so was she, btw). AND AGAIN, she still had him, whilst she promised me to leave him. So they broke up and we were on. I know she wouldn't do that to me, I really really know this girl well. So one day we were at my best friends birthday party, we had some fun, but I found out she had been lying, because apparently she still had with that guy while being with me. I.. didn't know what I felt, but god**** I was mad. Before I had the chance to react, she told me it was better if we wouldn't see each other anymore and went away.

 

I spoke her best friends at the time.. they told me, even though they weren't supposed to, that she went downhill after I left. She broke up with that dude and felt so bad about what she had done that she didn't speak to a guy for over half a year. Now the funny part; 6 months after that birthday party, AGAIN, chilling and we meet. Both fall in love, everything seemed perfect to me. So after 2-3 weeks of dating, nonstop chatting & being together; I get 'I'm not ready for a relationship yet'. You don't even wanna know how mad I went. She said she would love to be with me, but she just needs more time to breathe before she can fully engage a new relationship. As I said, all or nothing, so I was out.

 

And another 6 months later (I'm not a religious guy, but I believe everything happens for a reason) I get a message from viber 'EX-GF has joined, call her now!'. I ignored it, 2 days later, I get a message from Badoo (some random 'chicksite'); 'Would you like to meet 'EX-GF's NAME'?'. Questions popped up in my head, but still didn't take action. 3 hours later, an oooooooooold classmate texts me, we start talking and at some point 'How's 'EX-GF's NAME'? I remember how good you two look together!' I told her we broke up and blablabla.

 

Now I had to do something, I mean c'mon 3 SIGNS SO OBVIOUS? So I texted her, she actually showed me screenshots of her getting 'signs' as well. We started talking again and we met up TODAY.

 

I noticed how she was still in love, everything clearly said it. We started getting close again, but nothing more than holding hands. At some point I ask her 'so.. what now? I'm not staying for a rewind.' she gives me 'I'm not sure.. I don't know what I want blabla, I'm afraid blabla.. we should see each other a few more times and then I MIGHT have an answer.

 

NOW WHAT THE ******]*$[£+'dqjaoqnwvdjakqjbkqqidiwiqo IS THIS ****?!

 

In no way am I kidding that I love every single thing about this girl, I don't want to let go. I KNOW she loves me, but what the f?!?!?!?!?

 

I'm sorry for this wall of text, but I really needed to get this off of my chest.

Thanks for reading through all this.

 

Kind regards,

 

iUze.

[tinktronik]

Could it be possible that you are coming on as really intense? I know that has made me hit the breaks before.

[iUzername]

Could you explain what you mean by intense, please?