TopFive Posted October 7, 2013 Posted October 7, 2013 Hello, I'm 23 and like many others, i have female issues. In 2011, i started my first serious relationship. It was long distance. I am from New Jersey, but I attended school in oklahoma on a football scholarship. Everything with that relationship went well for almost a year and then i got my heart broken. We ended in July 2012. She instantly replaced me and to this day i have no closure on that. I had saw on twitter this new guy. One day i decided to contact her and she didnt reply. This is crazy and stupid, but i sent her new bf a message to ask if they were together so that i could move on. Later that same night my ex sent me the most hurt message that i had ever received. It was as if we werent together a month and a half prior. That hurt me so bad and the fact that i hated it in boring oklahoma didnt help. For weeks i would get drunk, get on twitter and broadcast my pain. My exes mother even called me because she said that i was hurting her daughter and getting in the way of her new relationship. Even though we had our heated fights in the end, i still treated her well and loved her. She was my first love and treated me like i was nothing to her. In october, my pain, loneliness and boredom caused me to turn to a dating site. I was coming home to jersey for good so i wanted to find someone that i could talk to at home. I met a really nice girl who is 4 years my senior. When i got home, we met and hit it off instantly. I had no job and it was very hard to find one. She volunteered to drive to me house, pick m up every weekend and show me a good time. I hated that she bought things for me because i couldnt return the favor at the time. Later, she would begin to resent me because her own financial situation began to get bad. She started doing and saying things that pushed me a way and made me think that she had some serious issues. I would cut her off for weeks and get back with her. This routine went on for most of this year. She is the reason i let go of my ex, but all she did was add to my frustration. Sadly, i got her pregnant and we didnt keep it. I feel terrible about it and i know she has hatred toward me. We still talked after the abortion, but nothing was the same. The final straw happened on my birthday when i drove 30 minutes up the road to her house and she didnt answer the door for me. She new i was coming. I sent her a message saying, " Lose my number yo. Youre a waste of my time, waste of gas and a waste of my life. I could have been doing other things tonight." I believe that's what truly ended us. That was almost three months ago and i was fine without her until last week. I had been feeling guilty and started missing her. My sister advised me to reach out. I messaged her on facebook and the first thing i noticed was another man in her profile pic. I wont jump to conclusions because she has alot of male friends. She hasnt replied. Im just confused at why i still want her and why im hurt that the guy in the pic could be her new man. I'm mad that everytime i'm on my feet and have money she's not around. Please, tell me something that could help.
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