Beachlife88 Posted October 6, 2013 Posted October 6, 2013 I was in a relationship for 3.5 years. In the first 6 months he slept with his ex gf which i found out about. We decided to work on things. Things were relatively great for the next 2 years. The last year he became very emotionally abusive, always made me feel like i was wrong and occasionally would shove me. Some nights I would leave hysterically crying from how I felt. 7 months ago I made a mistake. I hung out with a co-worker had way too much to drink and my coworker kissed me. I kissed him back. I woke up the next day sick to my stomach about what I had done. I have never cheated in my life. What had I done? 2 days later the depression I was in about the relationship before the cheating, was worse. I decided to break things off with my boyfriend. Despite the guy that kissed me trying to justify what I did. (drunk, he was a bad bf) theres no excuse. I should have been strong enough to leave my boyfriend and not cheat. I'm now labeled as a cheater. Since than I dont think I deserve anyone. Ugh am I an awful person? Whats worse is I have feelings for the guy that I kissed but I dont see how he could ever trust or respect me after what I did. Idk what to do.
melell Posted October 6, 2013 Posted October 6, 2013 You are not a bad person no, but you did do something horrible. How to remedy this? Do your very very best to be a good person, and think about others before you think of yourself. 1
unicorn farts Posted October 6, 2013 Posted October 6, 2013 Obviously you've now learned that cheating is not the way to solve a relationship issue, but crap. Stop beating yourself up over this! The guy was abusive. If kissing a coworker helped you leave, then it's really not a tragedy. Take care of yourself and don't feel too badly, Beach. Just consider it a lesson learned for future relationships and be glad you got away from the abusive boyfriend.
Author Beachlife88 Posted October 6, 2013 Author Posted October 6, 2013 I just feel horrible. I let my depression of being alone keep me in a ****ty relationship then I did something so out of my character. In turn it probably ruined anything I may have had with the new guy if I did the loyal thing and broke up with my bf first. I feel lost
Author Beachlife88 Posted October 6, 2013 Author Posted October 6, 2013 Obviously you've now learned that cheating is not the way to solve a relationship issue, but crap. Stop beating yourself up over this! The guy was abusive. If kissing a coworker helped you leave, then it's really not a tragedy. Take care of yourself and don't feel too badly, Beach. Just consider it a lesson learned for future relationships and be glad you got away from the abusive boyfriend. I'm very happy I got out of that relationship. I may have done it the wrong way but I needed out.
KatZee Posted October 6, 2013 Posted October 6, 2013 Listen, you made a mistake. That doesn't make you a horrible person or undeserving of good things. You were in a horrible relationship, you were not in the right state of mind, there were other ways to have gone about it, but what's done is done and it was a mere kiss. You didn't have sex with this guy in any way, it wasn't an emotional affair, it was a legit one time thing, and with how bad you feel, I doubt you'll ever do this again. You're fine.
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