Why would they do this?

[Amanda BVSc]

I can’t believe people that are supposed to care can really be so selfish. It makes no sense what they did to me so I guess I just have to stop trying to make sense of it.

 

I had been with my boyfriend for about a year, we had discussed sharing with another woman many times. Honestly it was me that was pushing it, it was something I always wanted to try but never would have had the courage to just approach another woman alone.

 

So we started seeing a wonderful woman and we all just clicked. It was an amazing time and we had some amazing experiences. You hear so many horror stories about how these relationships fail but we just hit the jackpot. There was no jealousy, they were together alone, her and I were together alone, we all just got along famously. So much so that after a little over six months we decided that we were so comfortable with this relationship that we would make it public. Boy oh boy was that a mistake.

 

As soon as we started telling people everyone was pulling me aside to tell me that this was his ex girlfriend!!! I was so embarrassed, I confronted them and of course it was true but she claimed to have no knowledge of the coverup and thought that I knew. He just shrugged his shoulders and smirked, what an absolute prick. Needless to say we ended it all right there and then.

 

Her and I were both played by this prick of a person and we actually grew closer because of it and continued our relationship with just the two of us. There was a chorus of disapproval but she had done nothing wrong and it was something I really wanted. I invested heavily in this relationship and can honestly say that I loved her like I have loved no other. I really thought she was the one.

 

That’s why it hurts so much now that I have just found out that she never stopped sleeping with my ex, our ex?, whatever the correct terminology is. It has been over a year and for that whole time she never stopped seeing him! I just can’t believe it, what would possess a person to do such a thing? Why would she want to keep seeing me if she was going to keep seeing him? Some people just think of no-one but themselves.

 

Well the two of them can have each other and play their screwed up games with each other. I will heal and survive and come out the other side a better person. I just hope the next person I date doesn’t end up being someone like them.