Gauranga Posted October 5, 2013 Posted October 5, 2013 I've got to tell my story to get this off my chest. I was broken up with today, and still in shock as I know it's finally over. I'm reaching out to the community for support and constructive feedback. For some back story, I knew this girl for about a year before I made a move. I saw her about twice a week with short interactions as she was my bank teller. I liked her from the start because not only was she pretty, she had a real kindness to her. I didn't make a move when I first met her, I had a lot of issues I was dealing with and didn't want to involve anyone else in my life at this time. At the end of April, I saw her on facebook and added her we started chatting, really good connection. I got her number and we texted a bit, but said she was too nervous to talk on the phone. A few days later she said ok, she's ready to start talking on the phone. I found out a few days later she was unhappy at the bank and was leaving to another job. I asked her out to lunch, and she said it would be easier at her new job because she'll have a set schedule, unlike the bank. So I was content with that, and we continued talking on the phone. Now, I wasn't too urgent getting her to meet up at that time because I had also just met another girl, and we were going out a couple times a week. So I had one girl I really clicked with on the phone, and another girl who was willing to hang out. Well the other girl I was hanging out with moved away at the end of May and I was now focused on the bank teller. Anyways at the end of May I asked her out again, and she told me she was being selfish because while she enjoyed talking with me, she couldn't meet me. I said ok, I'll give it more time, as I know this girl is shy. Well, over the rest of the months, about once a month, I would make an issue about not seeing each other, and she still couldn't bring her self to do it. We talked on the phone every night, I just feel disappointed that after all this time she's still unwilling to push through the issues she has and see me. Now a couple weeks ago, we were in a big fight and hadn't talked for a week, and I talked to her roommate and the roommate said the girl was apprehensive about meeting me because "you guys are so different that she doesn't want it to go somewhere if it doesn't have potential of a future." So, I actually saw her from a distance two days ago, just for a split second as she was going into work. It brought up all kinds of pain and frustration, I asked her later if that was her and she verified it. I felt really sad after all this time to finally see her, but that second changed everything. I broke down when I got home, and felt really messed up. I had a hard decision, either I finally end it or try and continue even though it was hurting me. Well, she cut my decision process short as she called me this morning. She told me she knew I was unhappy, and also knew that I wouldn't walk away. She said she has to end it because she can't give me what I want right now. So after an I love you and goodbye, we hung up. I'm sad that it ended this way, I really hoped after 5 months of talking it would have changed. With the breakup, it will take time to heal but I'll get over it. If I had continued on, I have no idea how long the pattern would have repeated. If you took the time to read, thank you in advance. I had to tell my tale.
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