cleoelliptical Posted November 30, 2004 Posted November 30, 2004 I have never had a problem saying goodbye to someone in a good riddens kind of way. For some reason, with this one person, I've been saying goodbye to him over and over, but I haven't been able to let him go. Even though I've said all I could, and did all I could, there's a part of me that wishes I could still be with him. I could go into why the relationship didn't work out, but the safe way to put it, he couldn't give me what I wanted. Though he was very special to me, if I would have left later on, it would have only made things worse. I found in him was a friend, a companion and a lover, yet he never wanted it to move beyond into the level of romance. There's so much going on for both of us, but more so for him in trying to put his life in order, so being on the same page was out of the question. We were unique together; free to say what we wanted, do what we wished, and be ourselves wholefully and in truth, and we understood eachother very well; corny enough, he was my soul-mate. I wish I could stay friends with him, but my love for him would only destroy that. I could easily say that I was really good to him, supportive, helpful, caring, and loving. And in many ways, he was too. And it's funny, I've got so much going for me; a happy life, great family, friends and career, and I found the person I want to share these things with, but he only wanted it on a level of friendship. So am I being ridiculous? Yea, of course I am. I just feel like I'm letting go of someone that I'm sure will having me saying a few months from now, "good riddens," but that time feels so far away. What we had was rare and he knows that as well. I feel like putting up a fight cuz I don't wanna lose him. But for some reason in my hard head, I'm not being rational in reminding myself that he doesn't want me back. Love really makes you stupid, blind, and appreciative. So what can I do to zap him out of my head? I'm busy, but I guess I'm not keeping busy enough. I have always been associated as someone who was strong, but why am I'm being so weak now? Should being his friend even be an option to me? Or should I just move on? And if so, I've seem to forgotten how to do that...need a few pointers...seemed to have lost my way. Thank-you much.
EC Posted November 30, 2004 Posted November 30, 2004 I could actually feel your sorrow through your words. Its horrible when you have finally found the person you want to be with... and share your life with. The one sole person you believe completes you..your soulmate. And then they tell you your just a friend and nothing more. It's hard, there's no off switch to your heart. You can't just say ok, heart and mind he doesn't want me back so lets just forget about him and find someone else. I agree that should not stay friends with him becasue it will only hurt you. And then it might make things uncomfortable between the both of you anyways. Just know that all the things you see in him, somebody else will see in you. You will be all those things and more to someone so don't give up hope or think less of yourself because the one you want doesn't want you. I say get out. You have so many things going for you already like your family, career, friends. Go out, go on dates, hang out with your family, have a girls night out.
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