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My denial is cracking and I just want to cry and turn back time. :(

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One of you LS friends should go secretly befriend my ex and convince him to forgive me, that it wasn't that bad and that we love each other and that he should contact me. :(

 

(Not serious)

 

Sorry, my real-life friends are sick of hearing about my break up :(

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I just shotgunned three beers and listened to "The Boys of Summer" on repeat like 10 times while sobbing and looking at old photos of my ex and I.

 

A month after being dumped by my ex, I told my best friend to show up at my ex's work, "not knowing" she worked there, to gather intel on how she was feeling. I didn't go through with it because my friend is a terrible actor and I had no faith in him pulling it off. I also didn't go through with it because it was patently ridiculous.

 

I guess the point I'm trying to make is, it's okay to have your moments of weakness. Pain is weakness leaving the body - you and I will get stronger because of these moments.

 

 

...Hopefully

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My denial is cracking and I just want to cry and turn back time. :(

 

I am sorry. It's part of the healing process and will take lots and lots of time. It's too bad we couldn't see the future relationships that we will all have. It would make it easier to stop looking back and look forward instead.

 

As for me, I think I've slipped back in denial. I was so tempted to check my exes FB today so I could just see her with someone else and get rid of my hope...

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Thanks for the support :(

 

 

I just can't believe it's over. Like I can't believe it. It's like somebody telling me the oceans dried up and I'm like "NO WAY! I won't believe until I see it!"

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One of you LS friends should go secretly befriend my ex and convince him to forgive me, that it wasn't that bad and that we love each other and that he should contact me. :(

 

(Not serious)

 

Sorry, my real-life friends are sick of hearing about my break up :(

 

That's why I love this place, people here sympathize instead of berating me for being stuck in limbo....unable to move on....I sound like I'm a ghost...

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As for me, I think I've slipped back in denial. I was so tempted to check my exes FB today so I could just see her with someone else and get rid of my hope...

 

It doesn't help

 

 

Hence the three shotgunned beers mentioned a few moments ago

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Thanks for the support :(

 

 

I just can't believe it's over. Like I can't believe it. It's like somebody telling me the oceans dried up and I'm like "NO WAY! I won't believe until I see it!"

 

Yeah I know, such a shock. Something that you believed in and made you feel secure is suddenly ripped out from underneath you.

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It doesn't help

 

 

Hence the three shotgunned beers mentioned a few moments ago

 

I know. That's why I don't do it. It will just take time. It's like watching paint dry.

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I did a stupid thing. I put up fake relationship status just because I know my ex is doing peachy without me and I don't want him to pity me more than he already did when I was sobbing, throwing up and begging at our apartment :(

 

I suck.

 

 

Imthedude - I think we know how they are doing just by the fact that they don't contact us.

 

Joel - I know what you mean. My ex actually closed his FB (he didn't have each other anyway) and knowing him, I am SO sure he did it because he is with someone now and really doesn't want me to see and get hurt. He feels guilty enough I suspect. :(

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I did a stupid thing. I put up fake relationship status just because I know my ex is doing peachy without me and I don't want him to pity me more than he already did when I was sobbing, throwing up and begging at our apartment :(

 

I suck.

 

 

Imthedude - I think we know how they are doing just by the fact that they don't contact us.

 

Joel - I know what you mean. My ex actually closed his FB (he didn't have each other anyway) and knowing him, I am SO sure he did it because he is with someone now and really doesn't want me to see and get hurt. He feels guilty enough I suspect. :(

 

Hey, that is cool. I suck too. We all make foolish mistakes when we're hurt and confused. At least we have company in our suckyness.

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Yeeeah, and at least we have a place to be honest.

 

Most awkward thing ever was having family members start asking about my "new boyfriend". :(

 

Made me hate my life all over again haha I literally had to tell them that it's because I'M SURE that my ex has somebody else BECAUSE HE CLOSED HIS FB so I don't want to look so left behind. Ha. Who knows what they thought of my logic. GOD, I hope this patheticness doesn't last over a year.

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Took a turn for the worse again.

 

I just came from sitting on my couch, crying while thinking about the night that I accepted his offer of a relationship, and how happy we both were while tickling and cuddling and kissing and playing on the floor. And how I was secretly glad that the storm came so that we could be at his place.

 

This isn't helping.

 

When will this be over?

 

I am giving in to temptation. I shouldn't!!!! But I am so ordering delivery chicken korma.

 

I need comfort food.

 

I believe once you told me to stay strong!

 

Stay strong. And know you are not alone.

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I did a stupid thing. I put up fake relationship status just because I know my ex is doing peachy without me and I don't want him to pity me more than he already did when I was sobbing, throwing up and begging at our apartment :(

 

I suck.

 

 

Imthedude - I think we know how they are doing just by the fact that they don't contact us.

 

Joel - I know what you mean. My ex actually closed his FB (he didn't have each other anyway) and knowing him, I am SO sure he did it because he is with someone now and really doesn't want me to see and get hurt. He feels guilty enough I suspect. :(

Lindsay, girl. I don't know what others will say, but don't be ashamed of the way you feel and of the ways in which you displayed your emotions. I don't know what it's like for females to cry in front of their male lovers, but I believe that we must be who are, and be true to ourselves, and if we cry in front of our lovers because they have left us, or if it is simply because we have chosen to say goodbye to an unworkable relationship, the responsibility is not upon us to hide our emotions; it is upon our lovers to care, and when they don't, then on that subject there is nothing more to say, is there. If you want to post a fake relationship status, I guess we do what we can work to help us deal with our losses. But would you have more respect for yourself not to play a game with him, not to lower yourself to his level? NC is a b**** for a reason: because we loved, and we still love, our lovers. Might you try to use the love you have to strengthen you and not to let your hurt and anguish move you to hide behind a facade or to otherwise be disingenuous? I encourage you to come out front and be the Lindsay girl you really are; she will like the scenery.

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I did a stupid thing. I put up fake relationship status just because I know my ex is doing peachy without me and I don't want him to pity me more than he already did when I was sobbing, throwing up and begging at our apartment :(

 

I suck.

 

 

 

No you don't suck. Whatever it takes to help. I split with my ex 20 months ago because she lost feelings. Went 11 months no contact and broke it briefly due to a death is her family. It s been 8 months N/C since and suddenly these last 3 days I am back at step one. I think a new job I hate and other stressors triggered it, since when I talked to her 8 months ago I didn't feel anything and felt I got closure.

 

I so badly want to contact her but know nothing will come of it. The thing is, I think it is the rejection and wanting what I can't have that is killing me. When she had told mutual friends to tell me "hi" or I heard her life was not going well, it made me feel better.

 

Now today, like you, I feel her life is peachy and it makes it hurt that much more. If I were to get a text saying she misses me, I would be totally fine ignoring her and going on with my life. I think I am the one that sucks.

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When will this be over?

 

I am giving in to temptation. I shouldn't!!!! But I am so ordering delivery chicken korma.

 

I need comfort food.

 

I believe once you told me to stay strong!

 

Stay strong. And know you are not alone.

 

Thank you Anya, I know we all feel like we were the first to love in the world and the first to lose it, ha. It's just... sometimes I wonder if it is better to be on the dumpee side. I think I'm weak and nostalgic and my inner romantic is coming out, but seriously, sometimes I think this is a different kind of loneliness than just falling out of love. Team Rejection, haha.

 

Oh and I feel you on the comfort food. My dad actually told me I was eating too much haha

 

 

 

Lindsay, girl. I don't know what others will say, but don't be ashamed of the way you feel and of the ways in which you displayed your emotions. ... I encourage you to come out front and be the Lindsay girl you really are; she will like the scenery.

 

 

Thank you. I'm not really ashamed in the sense of proving anything to him, like that I'm better off. But I haaaate feeling that he knows I'm worse. Like, I just want him to assume we are both at the same place. No more humiliation, haha. But you are right, there is nothing to be humiliated about loving and pleading, I mean, he should be more embarrassed than me for putting me through that!

 

 

 

I so badly want to contact her but know nothing will come of it. The thing is, I think it is the rejection and wanting what I can't have that is killing me. When she had told mutual friends to tell me "hi" or I heard her life was not going well, it made me feel better.

 

Now today, like you, I feel her life is peachy and it makes it hurt that much more. If I were to get a text saying she misses me, I would be totally fine ignoring her and going on with my life. I think I am the one that sucks.

 

Thanks Frank. You don't suck either, it's normal to feel a little vindicated that she's not doing so great. But it doesn't make it less awful to be the ones left behind :(

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