Fashiongal Posted October 3, 2013 Posted October 3, 2013 Hi guys. My name is Victoria. I'm 25 years old and live in Las Vegas. I recently joined this site tonight with the intentions of getting out some problems that are torturing me inside. I just ended a relationship that lasted 2 years and its really hard. I was really in love. We had something so deep and rare that I have never had with anyone. I truly believe that he is/was my soul mate. I equally love and hate this man. He said he'd always love me and he didn't. He said he'd always be there for me and he wasn't. He has made me feel used and disposable. After every argument we have, big or small, he breaks up with me and blocks my phone number as if I don't matter. If I send an email he will ignore it. How can he tell me he loves me and wants to marry me and have kids with me then tell me the very next day he doesn't want to be with me and blocks my number. He doesn't even allow me to get out what I have to say. I've put in so much time and effort. I've invested so much and I don't deserve that. What is great about it is the arguments we have are always caused by him then turned around on me when I get mad. I don't ask for a lot. The things I expect are things really that never should even be said. I expect his phone not to be off all night and for him to answer the phone. We've probably fought about this 100 times and the next night he is out with his friends and doesn't answer my call once then he breaks up with me as if I'm the one who did it. After I sat up all night worried, he breaks up with me for what he did! I'm not perfect but I am extremely loyal and have never cheated or even talked to other guys. Maybe I didn't always approach him in the right way when I was mad but I shouldn't have to be mad over things like this. Where is he that he can't answer the phone? He has given me every reason not to trust him. I logged into his email account once and found a naked picture of a girl with the date from a month prior. His excuse was that it wasn't recent and he saved it from an old phone. Then I found his online dating accounts. His excuse was that he has friends on there yet he can't show me one friend and his profile is all about what he is looking for in a girl. Then I saw the dirty messages to girls in his FB account. These fights were all "my fault" also. We were broken up for a week and I heard he had lasik surgery and I rushed to his side. I always call him to make sure he gets home safe when it is raining. I'm always there every time he needs me for emotional support. He wasn't there for me once when I was sick with endometriosis. If I call him with a serious problem and we just broke up, he doesn't bother to help. He doesn't think about me. He doesn't care about my feelings. I feel as if this was the biggest waste of time. After everything he put me through, right now my number is blocked and he said 5 times yesterday he doesn't want to be with me. A week ago he wanted to marry me and "said" he was looking at engagement rings. Everything he says is bs. He can't be trusted. He reminds me of a used car dealer. He argues facts, never takes blame for anything, and simply has no heart. I can't believe how he ended this without even caring about me. I honestly hate him but I guess this is what I get for dating someone without Jesus in his life. He has no morals or values. I know I shouldn't want to be with him but I really thought we were going to get married and have kids. He turned out to be such a disappointment. How do I move on?
Fufu Posted October 3, 2013 Posted October 3, 2013 Dear Fashiongal, your story has already given you the answer. He's not committed in this relationship at all. Why put yourself in this hurtful situation? A committed love relationship shouldn't be sadness and one-sided. I believe in no time, you will feel much better without this guy in your life.
RiceaRoni Posted October 3, 2013 Posted October 3, 2013 I'm sorry you feel this way dear The answer is clear...you deserve far better. Someone you can trust, someone you feel secure with, someone who will actually work out issues you both have after a argument or dispute instead of breaking up with you and ignoring you and then coming back... He himself isn't stable emotionally, and from where I see it isn't ready to have a commitment. In time you will get through this. For now, come onto LS and vent, people are here to help you at all times. Get out and enjoy time with friends and family, do activities, enjoy time with yourself. You aren't at fault for anything dear, it's all on him and how he treated you. You deserve to be treated so much better.
Author Fashiongal Posted October 3, 2013 Author Posted October 3, 2013 Thank you girls for the positive responses. Hes the one at fault but yet I'm the one who is suffering while he moves on without a care. Its disgusting to me how little I obviously meant. I'm done being the one to try and work things out. I'm done emailing him when my number is blocked. I'm ready to move on this time. Its like I feel sick when i'm without him and angry all of the time when I am with him. I'd rather get through the sickness instead of feeling angry the rest of my life.
Fufu Posted October 3, 2013 Posted October 3, 2013 Thank you girls for the positive responses. Hes the one at fault but yet I'm the one who is suffering while he moves on without a care. Its disgusting to me how little I obviously meant. I'm done being the one to try and work things out. I'm done emailing him when my number is blocked. I'm ready to move on this time. Its like I feel sick when i'm without him and angry all of the time when I am with him. I'd rather get through the sickness instead of feeling angry the rest of my life. You can do it!
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