Lizrd3000 Posted October 2, 2013 Posted October 2, 2013 So, I just signed in as I thought this forum was ah-mazing, and wanted to put my story somewhere. so my ex just broke up with me 4 days ago, and initially, I felt devistated. but now I feel free, happy, and it feels like I never loved her, just wanted her to accept me or something.. so here's my story: me and my girlfriend were in the same class for 2 years, but I never really liked her or anything, just friends. at the last few weeks before summer started and we'd both go to different schools, we started dating. and have dated for 5 months in total after the break-up. the relationship: she was way more independant than I was, and I was always the one initating dates, hanging out and sleep-overs etc. So the relationship felt really one-sided. I know she loved me though. she would frequently make me jealous over stupid ****. she could be lovey-dovey one moment and after an hour be all like independant and annoyed or some ****. anyways, all this sh*t doesnt matter anymore now it's over, but I feel like as if I'm free from the relationship now, I was sad for the first day, like REALLY sad, the second day was still sad but better, third day the same as the 2nd, but now, I feel completely fine and not at all wanting her back. she broke up with me by the way. the reason she broke up: she said she was dominant, and needed a guy that could tame her or something, a guy more dominant than she is. what confuses me is that I actually was pretty dominant, not in a controlling way, but in a normal manly way, but she'd get mad at me over that too. what's even weirder, is that when we broke up, she said she missed me during our NC for a few days before we broke up, and she also said she'd miss me after the break-up, and we both cried that day. I know she wants me back, but I'm not sure I want to, due to me knowing her bad sides, and knowing that I've been one of the best boyfriends I was, despite her cold behaviour sometimes. is it weird to love someone during the relationship, and after the break-up, feel like those emotions felt during the relationship weren't real, and based on nothing? I'm so noob in relationships, so was she. I'm 18, she's 17, both our first relationship, first time sex, and it lasted for 5 months, but the last 3 months were pretty hell for me to be honest, haha. I know my thread is a bit (alot) all over the place and messy, but I'm happy with whatever response I can get! just wanted to put something out that I wrote, my feelings, etc. Thank you! can't wait to explore more of this forum!
melell Posted October 2, 2013 Posted October 2, 2013 Hey. I just wanted to say be prepared for your feelings and perspectives about this to change as time goes by, because I promise you they will!
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