40doors2nowhere Posted October 2, 2013 Posted October 2, 2013 im 15 (16 in mid january) year old male and and im in love with my 10th grade english teacher. she is 30. i go to a high school where only 5 or 10% of the students their are female so most of my classes have 1 or 2 girls in it. i hate this school. not because of the amount of girls but because of the shop classes i have to take. i planned on leaving the school until i met her. she is so beautiful, dazzling, stunning, and just so amazing. she has taken over my whole world . i spend most of my time thinking about her. even when im in my other classes so im not concentrated at all in school. i try really hard to get her to notice me cause the claas has 40 kids in it. i get to her class 10 minutes early, i do all my hw's and participate as much as possible just so she can talk to me. i even started wearing axe and putting gel in my hair to be more attractive. also im extremely depressed and have been since 7th grade. ever since i met her i havent been so sad. i dont what to do. please dont tell me its infatuation because i know i truly love her and dont tell me it will just blow over.
Eivuwan Posted October 3, 2013 Posted October 3, 2013 If you love her, why would you want her to risk her job and possibly go to jail to be with you... So no, this is not love. It's an infatuation.
fallenheart Posted October 3, 2013 Posted October 3, 2013 (edited) I believe you when you say you're in love with her. And I remember what love feels like at 15 and it's the most awful, painful, all-encompassing emotion in the world. And whether you'll admit it here or not, there's gotta be a healthy dose of lust mixed in with that longing you feel for her. And I wish I could tell you that she could return those feelings and the two of you could be together.....but I can't. Because it's just not possible. She's a grown woman and she works as a teacher which is a position based on trust and integrity. She would never risk her job and reputation to have a fling with a student. I know you don't feel like a child, but in her eyes, and in the eyes of the law, you ARE a child. And a grown professional woman is simply not going to see you as anything else. I'm sorry. You have a choice: continue to let yourself be madly in love with her, knowing you'll never have a chance to ever be with her. Settle for professional conversations only, like stuff about test scores and homework. Basically live in a world where you are torturing yourself every time you see her. OR.... Try to accept that it simply can't happen. It was an unfortunate twist of fate that you were born too late to be with her. BUT....there ARE girls your age that could make you as happy...or happier. Turn your attention to girls that are actually attainable, instead of living in a fantasy world. Otherwise....this pain and agony you feel will never end. Also....watch the movie "Rushmore." It might help. (PS....stop wearing Axe. It's for douchebags.) Edited October 3, 2013 by fallenheart
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