sgd Posted September 30, 2013 Posted September 30, 2013 I'm sure this will be quite long, but I will be forever grateful for whoever reads and even gives advise for me. I met someone awhile ago by a weird coincidence on a silly site like omegle. We exchanged skype information and spoke everyday, he became my best friend and he confided in me. I was dealing with my own personal demons at the time, and he basically saved me. After awhile we both mutually fell in love with each other. The problem being he lives in a completely different country. He planned to come visit me in August, and in the beginning in July, he said he couldn't do it anymore, that it was stupid and it was over. He said that to me four days after I had just lost my uncle. I needed him more than ever and he left. I completely shut down. It was so bad, all I did was sleep and cry. I can't even begin to describe the hurt that I was feeling. I knew from the very first few weeks of speaking with him that he was it for me. That I found the person I was meant to be with for the rest of my life, and it scared me but I was so sure about it. When he left me I told him I'd come live there, I gave him a plan I had made to him and he said he needed time to think. He ignored me a few days later when I asked him what he thought. And for the longest time I was so angry at him. I wrote him about two months later, when I couldn't hold on to what I was feeling anymore. We had a long chat that gave me a new outlook on it. How it was from his perspective. He said he was pushing everyone away from him because all he wanted was me. He was constantly feeling lonely and he was hurting. Then he said something like "I hope something brings us together in the future." I know he's scared and I honestly feel like he loves me still- he even said it. But what do I do? No matter who I see now he's always in the back of my mind. I'm always telling myself to wait for him. I'm struggling and confused, and just want him back in my life. But I am setting myself up for if that doesn't happen. It just wouldn't make sense if it didn't though. There's more too it, I just made it more 'reader friendly'. Any bit of advise would help. Even hearing similar stories would make me feel good as well.
Solcita2 Posted September 30, 2013 Posted September 30, 2013 The old question: how old are you guys? How far away are you from each other? How long since you started falling for each other? What about the finantial situation on both ends? Are you both single?
skydiveaddict Posted September 30, 2013 Posted September 30, 2013 (edited) I needed him more than ever and he left. I completely shut down. It was so bad, all I did was sleep and cry. I can't even begin to describe the hurt that I was feeling. I know how you feel. I was overseas for a year. All the emails, letters, phone calls; all saying how much she loved me. None of it meant ****. When I got back home she was gone. I will never trust another girl again. It aint worth the heartache. Edited September 30, 2013 by skydiveaddict
Author sgd Posted October 3, 2013 Author Posted October 3, 2013 I'm 18, he's 19. We've known each other for about three years now. I live in Arizona, and he lives in England. Financially we're both just starting off And the thing is we don't even speak anymore. I've been trying to give him time, but I'm not entirely sure what I should be doing. @skydiveaddict yeah it sucks, all that reassurance and it doesn't even matter.
skydiveaddict Posted October 3, 2013 Posted October 3, 2013 @skydiveaddict yeah it sucks, all that reassurance and it doesn't even matter. Yea I agree. The betrayal is what bothers me. ya know? If you're no longer interested just say so. Coming home after a 12 month tour and she's not even there? And all the lies that went along with it? That damaged me permanently. I sincerely hope it's not the same for you. Perhaps it won't be. May God watch over you.
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