keep hooking up with ex

[johndoes]

A couple weeks ago I hooked up with my recent ex and regretted it so I told it doesn't need to happen again and she agreed. Well two weeks later sure enough she shows up at the same bar and it was died. We hung out and talked but I ended up leaving and heading home by myself. Well next thing I know she is over at my house in the drive way telling me I need to go home with her. So sure enough my drunk self went ahead and got in with her. We get to her place and start making out and stuff but I heald off and went to bed without having sex. I want to send this to her even though we talked before...go idea or is it just redundant???

 

I know this is going to sound repetitive but we really can't keep doing this. I know ive said it before and now I can see that it is more my problem than yours. I'm just asking if its something we both can agree on again and actually stick with it. I've realized that the only reason why I continue to want to come over is so you can hopefully see that you want me back but I know its not going to happen. These meet ups I feel are only for a booty call and I won't be that. This is just going to set me up for failure. A lot has been said about certain things since we broke up and I don't know if you still are trying to see where that goes..people brought it up and i told them it was none of my business but the damage was done and i just need the time to get over it all and move on. Its obvious were going to bump into each other and im just asking to keep it sociable and that's it...no staying over or drunk calling/texting. Part of me would like to give it another go but its not the right time for that. With me and the bobbi pins, even though you said you believe me i know its still a factor...and you talking to him more than you lead on to when we were together...I really don't see it happening anytime soon. There were other issues as well but they are small compared to those. But who knows it might work out sometime...life is crazy and if its meant to be then it is. Whats done is done and you are a special person to me and I know it was short but you did leave your mark on me and not very many people have been able to do that. It will take time but I just gotta be able to look at you as a friend and that's it.