heartonsleeve11 Posted September 29, 2013 Posted September 29, 2013 I am an idiot. A complete and utter idiot. I have been talking to this guy long distance for about 2 years now. We have been dating on & off. I don't even want to write this post right now. I am so disgusted with myself. I can't stop from contacting him. Even after all of the lousy things he said and did to me. I have no self control whatsoever. It's just so pathetic. Ugh. Okay I guess I should just get it out there. So he has depression and was living alone in an apartment. He was in a really bad place and I encouraged him to go to a psychiatrist and move into an apartment with roommates so he could have some people around him and not be alone all the time. He went on medication and moved out with roommates. He's really happy now...except he's acting like a total jerk. He had a thing for one of his "seasonal" roommates who was only there in the summer. He started acting distant one week and later he told me it was because he wanted to....do the deed...with her. We have been fighting a lot lately and I tried to take a break from him today. I broke down and called him back an hour ago (like a moron) to hear that he's at a bar with the roommate. I'm just such a moron. This guy is no good for me and couldn't make it more obvious that he doesn't care about me if he tried and here I am still contacting and waiting for him. I don't think any amount of actions or words can knock sense into me...I'm just a fool. :'(
Polak Posted September 29, 2013 Posted September 29, 2013 Here's the deal... you say you're a fool and a moron, but why continue contacting him? You know your mistakes, now act to fix them. Don't break down, you're stronger than that. Obviously this guy is no good for you, regardless of how long you've known each other. The fact that this relationship has been long-distance allows him to do whatever he pleases on his end. Don't settle for that, just break it off. You will save yourself even more unnecessary pain and suffering in the future. 3
Neffer Posted September 29, 2013 Posted September 29, 2013 Stop kicking yourself for being human and having hurt feelings. We all do. We all feel pathetic at some point. Then, after venting a little - start NC. Has to be done and its the only thing to do. Contacting him = pain. That is all he is, a cause of pain. So cut it off - go NC. Don't look to him for anything - there are no answers he can give that will make anything better. Its over and frankly, you will be relieved once you are clear of this. It will get easier. And you can do better.
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