She Loves Me But...

[todreaminblue]

thanks deb!

 

I already know I want to take the leap of faith on this for sure. I really appreciate that comment, it made me realize for sure I want to see her again and see what will happen of us, whether I get hurt or not.

 

I guess I just want to see what everyone on here has to say about it, because it will let me imagine and prepare for the realm of possibilities that could occur as best as I can.

 

So I'm taking this leap of faith, but it's scary as hell because I could go right back to square one, and I've spent a month already working myself to this good state of mind.

 

 

my thoughts are with you ...i wish you nothing but the best.....scared is good...feel that heart beating .....its gonna keep beating no matter what happens it lets you know you aint dead yet........even back at square one..touch wood......smilin......best wishes to you ...go kamikaze..;0)...you good thang...the quote below is for you....deb

 

 

 

“A dead thing can go with the stream, but only a living thing can go against it.”

G. K. Chesterton

[GreatGuy22]

So I may as well continue with this. It's been seven weeks now since we split up. We spent our time not talking, I did no contact and she still contacted me very often. That meet up I mentioned 3 weeks ago turned out to be an hour long conversation that I ended up feeling terrible about, she was clearly still in lala land and cold and aloof.

 

So fast forward to today. A week and a half ago she found out I was talking and hanging out with an ex she has not liked and been jealous of our whole relationship. This other ex and I had a good time hanging but she was far more into me than I was into her, and I cut that off awhile ago. This still set my (most recent) ex off I guess, not in anger, but in the fact that she has texted me everyday since. Either it's asking questions about my work, just trying to find small talk, and even last night she drunk texted and then drunk dialed me at 2 am. I've been calm cool and casual about things when she talks to me all of these times, I don't want to blow her off completely, I do sometimes, but hey I do still eventually want to see if her and I can work on things again.

 

I don't really know where it's going with us at this point, but she's told our mutual friend she thinks she wants to get back together, but I have no idea right now what kind of pace we should be going at or if any of that is actually true. i know it should be sloooooow. But she's been texting me on the daily, and wants to know about all of my business, she tells me she will always care for me and she's still just "confused"........ which I don't give to her completely, we've seen each other a couple of times now, too. And obviously the holidays are coming up, our two year anniversary would have been 2 weeks from now, so significant times will be coming up soon and she's warming up to be and being less aloof and cold everyday.

 

Whatever's happening here, I can't totally read, and I have no idea how to go about actually getting back with an ex successfully, but I have a feeling I'll need some coaching on how to handle this situation the right way, whether we're meant to be or not.