My quest forward.

[loveiswar101]

Ok after much thought I've come to relise that my ex-partner either no longer wants to be with me at this time.

 

I need to vent so thought Id start this post on how I'm going to cope with live after her. My feelings for I believe will no diminish but I have to think of me and my future.

 

OK, I think number one is to move out of my mates place. I have a budget and need to start looking. Looked at a place yesterday and to dingy so have noted a few more down and will act on them.

[JoelBarish]

I really thought you had a chance to reconcile. Tough break. Good luck and keep us posted.

[loveiswar101]

Buddy thanks for quick reply. I thought so, we are communicating and when we see each other she give me a kiss and cuddle. But that just tormenting me and seems I want more than she is offering and I got to just have this time to think of me. If I keep letting this go on I be locked up before I know it. I think she wants me to go my way, I think if I get sorted she may come back, but that will be her choice and not mine.

[loveiswar101]

Ok, things have changed for the better so to speak. I got needy and tried to firm down with her what's happening. I had a drink with mate (her girlfriends partner) and he understood that I was in limbo and needed to know and mixed signals from her wasn't fair. So that day (Tue) I phoned her at work and offered to take her out straight after work to a local pub for dinner and a chat. She agreed, we had a few wines and bite to eat (during which she made several sexual suggestions, this is the mixed signals I'm getting). I then put it forward I would move in with her if that what she wanted and we would give it ago. Straight away she said no and that 3 months back I didn't want to and what had changed my mind. Well this Break Up had certainly open my eyes to who I want to be with and where I want to be. Tears started to roll and after I calm her down we chatted more and both agreed we loved each other and would give it ago. I then drove her home. She then suggested it would be nice if I would stay the night with no hanky panky. Issue here was her boys were still up and she didn't want to give them mixed feelings of what has happened. So basically she sneaked me in. Now all night I could hardly sleep just lying there looking at her. I am almost obsessed how much I love this woman. Not being nasty to my ex wife but I don't believe I ever had these sort of feelings for someone. Next morning I slipped out the house before her boys were up, with her telling me she would talk to them about us.

 

I looked at another unit to move into next day not great, so more looking this weekend. We spoke on the phone and to asked her if she had mentioned to the boys and she thought it would be best if we both spoke to them together, i greed. Now her boys have gone away for weekend and she has a big birthday bash Saturday and Sunday. I though I wouldn't text last night to try and get away from the needy look I have been showing. Ironically she text me to just say "hi" So I text her back saying hi and could I take her out for dinner tomorrow (tonight) due to her big weekend and she has agreed.

 

So that's where I am up to. I half glad things are for the better but I DO FEEL I HAVE PUSHED A BIT to get to this point and now need to just take a step back and sort accommodation out for me and get myself sorted general, which I have been doing.

 

Tonight Ill take her out and not push anything just chat etc drop her home and let her call the shots on the evening I think.

Edited September 26, 2013 by loveiswar101

[JoelBarish]

That's great man. I am happy for you. I guess your best bet is to proceed with caution .

[loveiswar101]

Cheers my friend, she says she wants a man and guess I need to fix me, I just hope she puts all in and gives us a chance like I'm going to do.

 

Baby Steps I think...