Nyclovin Posted September 18, 2013 Posted September 18, 2013 Four months since I was cut open. I struggle a tiny bit less everyday. Four years living together to absolulty no contact after she seemingly out of the blue asked me to take my things, leave and not contact her anymore. New home, new friends , therapy, and a new outlook have allowed me to live day to day with some hope. However, the nights are beyond my control. My psyche takes hold of vivid and lucid dreams. Dreams of us back together . Dreams of rekindling what is now surely dead . Dreams of her naked in all her beauty and glory. Dreams of kissing her lips. So real are these dreams that when I wake it feels like an eternity for the euphoria to slip away as the morning routine with its obligatory depression sinks in. I rise and venture out into the lonely morning . I wonder if she dreams of me ? I wonder if she is lonely in the morning too?
M30USA Posted September 18, 2013 Posted September 18, 2013 (edited) Four months since I was cut open. I struggle a tiny bit less everyday. Four years living together to absolulty no contact after she seemingly out of the blue asked me to take my things, leave and not contact her anymore. New home, new friends , therapy, and a new outlook have allowed me to live day to day with some hope. However, the nights are beyond my control. My psyche takes hold of vivid and lucid dreams. Dreams of us back together . Dreams of rekindling what is now surely dead . Dreams of her naked in all her beauty and glory. Dreams of kissing her lips. So real are these dreams that when I wake it feels like an eternity for the euphoria to slip away as the morning routine with its obligatory depression sinks in. I rise and venture out into the lonely morning . I wonder if she dreams of me ? I wonder if she is lonely in the morning too? That's got to be rough having those dreams. I honestly didn't have that many of my ex, even early in the divorce. The few ones I did have left me scared since they pertained to her falsely accusing me of various things and one particular one that woke me up was where she was kicking my ass. I think if I had a lot of intimate dreams it would make things a lot harder on me. I did have one or two but they were not frequent. Edited September 18, 2013 by M30USA
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