few wonderful dates and ended....

[Ibaadat]

I am not into dating due to my religious values. I also havehard time liking people that I meet. However, this guy I met somewhere and I liked. We couldn’t get our eyes off each other. We exchanged #s, and he initiated texting. Texting and flirting continued back n forth, which added to more romantic feelings within me. He asked me out, and I had to decline 2-3times as I was busy and gave him alternative days. Finally, we met casually. We didn’t talk much, as I talk less and I think he does too. He tried few times to kiss, and I declined politely. Had another proper date. Our attraction and deep gazing in each other’s eyes continued, and we made out a lot on thatda y. He kept giving complements about my looks, kiss, etc. However, he did not ask much else to get to know me. Like he didn’t even ask how old I am. Mostly it was talking with eyes, and mind, with some general chit chat. I figured that I am few years older than him, but appear younger than my age per most people.Couple days after he set another date, and that was incredible too. He had 3 g/fs in the past, with whom he did all the way, and when I asked him if he been in love, he said NO. Our religious beliefs are same, and it appears, he has faith, but break the rules, like I did. I am looking for long-term r/ship with potential for marriage. I asked him what was in his mind for us, and he said, although,he likes me, all these years, he had personal goals for which he will be moving back home in a year, to achieve his goals (serving his nation’s people). I don’t know his personal life, so just took his word. Then, I said, we have to part ways, as I am not ready to fall in love for a year, with a pre-decided break up date, as I don’t casually date etc. Love is a serious matter to me. He was okay with dating/falling in love until he moves back. We ended over the phone maturely. We both expressed that we are not happy with this outcome. Next day,he texted me, how he is hating everything and missing my text messages. I did not reply. It’s been a week since NC. Our first meeting was 5 weeks ago, and for first 4 weeks, we were texting daily, with occasional gaps. I am really missing him, I don’t know if its love, but I feel he comes back in my life, and stay forever. Sometimes I regret, that I should have just dated until I could have, however, it would have hurt my self-respect knowing that its temporary for him, and although, its so hard to meet quality people for marriage who share same values, having him temporarily would have perhaps blocked it even further. But I really miss him and can’t forget his touch and can’t stop thinking about him. I would have been very sincere if he had stayed. Will he contact me again? Was he just a player, or had feelings for me? He liked holding and kissing me a lot, when we went out. I made it clear to him that no sex for me, and he said he won’t force me. What should I do based on above information, which doesn’t hurt my self respect in future,with a chance to have him. Should I contact him or wait to see if he contacts again.

Edited September 17, 2013 by Ibaadat

[Ibaadat]

Can anyone please provide their two cents....i'm quiet depressed and would like to hear anything, positive/negative.

[truth_seeker]

I think he's a player looking to hook up until he leaves.