freebird31 Posted September 17, 2013 Posted September 17, 2013 So some background info. me and my ex are young 21. went out for almost a year. he broke up with me becuase he got a job and he no longer had the time for the relationship anymore. anyway, these past months, this idiot wouldnt leave me alone. He asked me on about 2 different occasions for favors. one other time was just to talk and the last time he wanted to just say hi. Every single time, my dumbass enabled him. Instead of ignoring him, i replied, and continutously told him to please just give me my space. THe last time i finally just gave in and had a conversation with him catching up. STUPID ME. any way, after these agonizing crappy 5 months. I repeated the cycle AGAIN. I ended up telling him to give me my space and to leave me the hell alone and that he just causes me pain and that we need to let it go. he ended up responding, saying that he had "mad love for me still" (WHATEVER THAT MEANS) ((NEVER has he mentioned the word LOVE)) and that he is still attracted to me. he then used derrogatory comments saying he missed my sweet ass. WTF. he has never said anything like that to me before i was baffled and disgusted. anyway, these last two weeks i kept obsessing over what he meant by using the word love and overanaylized everything . i foolishly called him and asked him if he could talk. and i asked him what he meant by using those sexual comments and stated he had never mentioned talking like this to me before and that i did not want to leave things ona bad note and that i just wanted some answers. becuase thats not something he would usually say. (STUPID STUPID ME) HE THEN tells me it doesnt matter anymore and that i need to stop taking life so seriously and havea little fun . and then tells me "it doesnt matter anymore, youre the one that wanted your space and now im giving it you" he literally repeated that three times. HE EFFING TURNED IT ON ME. REALLY? these last five months i wanted my space and the one time i reached out to him, he TURNED IT ALL ON ME, and tells me that he is trying to give me my space and he doesnt understand me. NOW REALLY>?? of all the times NOW he wanted to give my myspace. well you know what **** YOU. i dont know if youre allowed to curse on thiss. but seriously F*** OFF. i dont need that in my life. i dont regret the call. im glad i know what a complete jerk is. NOT the guy i fell for. i just cant believe he turned it on me. so pissed off. im fuming.
KeepItBoosted Posted September 17, 2013 Posted September 17, 2013 Let it out! just sever yourself from him go NC and things will get better. I had to do the same the other day, kinda feel like doing it again. It feels good doesn't it! Just release on here and don't send him anything. Fk them, tell them off, say all those things you wish you could say to their face.
Author freebird31 Posted September 17, 2013 Author Posted September 17, 2013 Let it out! just sever yourself from him go NC and things will get better. I had to do the same the other day, kinda feel like doing it again. It feels good doesn't it! Just release on here and don't send him anything. Fk them, tell them off, say all those things you wish you could say to their face. I seriously wanted to text him back and tell him to F off. But didnt. I'm still really pissed off. I'm just going to erase him from my mind. He's pathetic.
KeepItBoosted Posted September 17, 2013 Posted September 17, 2013 Well, I know from experience that just writing out exactly what you would say to them on here helps a hell of a lot. Here's a condensed version on my story, I vented a couple posts down. I was so close to texting her exactly what I wrote, but I knew it would just set me back. Afterward I felt relieved. My Story So if you ever get tempted just release it on here, that what this forum is for. That and good support from the community, a lot of people on here are very insightful and helpful.
Author freebird31 Posted September 17, 2013 Author Posted September 17, 2013 Well, I know from experience that just writing out exactly what you would say to them on here helps a hell of a lot. Here's a condensed version on my story, I vented a couple posts down. I was so close to texting her exactly what I wrote, but I knew it would just set me back. Afterward I felt relieved. My Story So if you ever get tempted just release it on here, that what this forum is for. That and good support from the community, a lot of people on here are very insightful and helpful. Read your post....sorry that you had to go through that. I really dont know what is "right" anymore. this is my first relationship and doesnt really give me any more of an excuse but i have had little self control throughout this entire breakup. I gave in to his attempts to talk to me and slipped up quite a lot. idk. Love really sucks. my first experience caring for someone really sucked im just not ready to go through this again for a long time. I overanalyze everything, but personally I could never cheat on someone. idk why. I could never hurt someone like that. or live with that kind of guilt...i guess i just willl never understand why some people do the things they do.
Author freebird31 Posted September 17, 2013 Author Posted September 17, 2013 Read your post....sorry that you had to go through that. I really dont know what is "right" anymore. this is my first relationship and doesnt really give me any more of an excuse but i have had little self control throughout this entire breakup. I gave in to his attempts to talk to me and slipped up quite a lot. idk. Love really sucks. my first experience caring for someone really sucked im just not ready to go through this again for a long time. I overanalyze everything, but personally I could never cheat on someone. idk why. I could never hurt someone like that. or live with that kind of guilt...i guess i just willl never understand why some people do the things they do. i also applaud you for not giving in to her attempts to talk to u/win u back. that takes a whole lot. and i wish i would have done the same. lessons learned. but either way i hate my ex with every inch of my soul. but i wont let it change the person i am. i am always the type to think about others and i wont let one douche bag change that, i just know now that people are selfish and to be a hell of a lot more cautious the next time around. i wont give up on the idea that one day i will find someone who will really love me and love me for the good-hearted person i am. but seriously, our exes are douchebags. this pain really sucks been suffering the last 5 months from constant struggle and tears. but theres a light at the end of every tunnel. i hate my ex.
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