Why is my heart still aching?! Can I EVER have him back?

[GoodWitchOfTheNorth]

I apologize in advance if this gets long...

Back in July, my boyfriend of just over a year broke up with me. It was very sudden and abrupt. It turns out after talking with a "friend" of mine, she revealed to him that in the first month of our relationship I had cheated on him with an ex. Out of impulse...I denied it. He got furious and broke up with me the second he found out. I eventually told him that my ex had pressured me into the situations and that I cried everytime. A couple weeks later he decided that my friend's motives weren't exactly pure in telling him and he wanted to have another chance with me because he loved me and wanted to trust me. During the couple of days that we were back together he told me, and i quote, that he wanted me "to be his main supporter in life and stand by him through everything". The next day he told me that he could never ever trust me again.

Several months have gone by, we've rarely spoken. He's now away in the army and I miss him every second. Everyday I cry for him...I've even meant someone else, but that hasn't done anything. I felt like me and him were meant to be together. I'd like to elaborate on the situation but I dont want to bore anyone...I just was wondering why, after almost 5 long months, I am still enduring this amount of hurt. And if when he comes home from the Army..what should I do? Should I call him? We had dogs together and I would love to see them......Is there any way we can get back together? I suppose there's nothing I really can do....I have no control over how he feels....

[overseas2004]

I know that you feel hurt and you want him back. I had someone cheat on me once and I tried to get back together with him but I never really trusted him again. Everytime he got a phone call or went somewhere I always had what if he is out cheating in the back of my mind... It was just too much and so I broke up again. Sorry for your loss but let me tell you... it may be good that this happened to you and teach you how valuable it is to have someone by your side that is good to you. You probably will never cheat again will ya?