confused515 Posted September 15, 2013 Posted September 15, 2013 Saw my ex the other day reading the paper and having coffee w her new boyfriend/guy she was with while with me. I got sick to my stomach and was overcome with fear and anxiety. I had not answered any of her texts/emails or calls for over 30 days. I saw the opportunity to grow by walking through the fear and other emotions. My mind wanted me to run the other way BUT I said screw that, Why should I be scared? I had not done anything wrong. I walked up to them and said "Hi guys"' She jumped up and gave me a hug which I kinda shrugged off and then I stuck my hand out and introduced myself to him, shook his hand and then talked for about 1 minute. I said "well, just wanted to say hi, Have a good day" Was the scariest thing I had done in a long time BUT It felt good to walk through the discomfort. She has texted me a couple times saying "it was nice to see you today, Will you see me?" and then "hey, are you around?" I sent her a email saying that I am not looking to communicate with her. SHe lied to me for a month, was with him and me at the same time. She was inconsiderate of my emotions and took advantage of me. I am still in shock of how she treated me and the pain is unbearable at times BUT they are just emotions and I have learned to be with them.... They do pass. Embracing them has been a huge help. I am human, feelings are normal and I want to process them instead of trying to run from them. I miss her and our friendship but I know for me I could never look at her the same... 3
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