ConcreteHeart Posted September 14, 2013 Posted September 14, 2013 I learned a valuable lesson last night. Booze and no contact are incompatible. A slight slip for me. Only two words, "this blows" but it might has well been a 3 page letter. Same effect...he knows I'm hurting. Came to my sense before falling asleep and blocked his number again. I think it's time to discontinue cell phone service for good. Just too easy to fall back. Back to it today...it really is addiction in all its forms...send positive energy my way! 1
Goodbye Posted September 14, 2013 Posted September 14, 2013 Ugh! You found out the hard way. I gave up alcohol some time ago...before all this crazy stuff. I'm so glad I'm not drinking during this NC, I would most certainly have drunk dialed/emailed/facebooked. Alcohol takes away all impulse control. Well, at least you didn't write a sob story or contact his wife or something. Sending you positive energy. Do yourself a favor and put down the wine glass during this chapter of your life...can't hurt! 1
waytogo Posted September 14, 2013 Posted September 14, 2013 I learned a valuable lesson last night. Booze and no contact are incompatible. A slight slip for me. Only two words, "this blows" but it might has well been a 3 page letter. Same effect...he knows I'm hurting. Came to my sense before falling asleep and blocked his number again. I think it's time to discontinue cell phone service for good. Just too easy to fall back. Back to it today...it really is addiction in all its forms...send positive energy my way! Your post so refreshingly is of a person taking self-responsibility! Any alcohol and negative emotions do have high potential for disaster! Your two words did not make disaster. They did make you feel bad for sending them. No one here I've seen is holding it against you. Please try not to hold it against yourself. Remember Dear, you have your true and honest starting over time. You can use this in so many ways. That you are honest about this mistake gives me so much confidence you will make the most of it!
SunsetRed Posted September 14, 2013 Posted September 14, 2013 You're only human! Forgive yourself and move on. The imp thing is your reaction to having made the contact and you seem to have a health perspective on it. You attitude is more like "OMG, Im so sorry I did this" and not "Oh, why hasn't he contacted me back." Im sending lots of energy your way and I hope you soon have a man that gives you love instead of lies and game playing. 1
messiness Posted September 14, 2013 Posted September 14, 2013 I made that mistake last night too. Hardly drunk anything over the past 8 weeks of LC (feel numb enough already) then managed to get through 8 excruciating days of NC that I started and went and liked something on one of his fictional FB pages. (We both still have silly made up accounts that no-one else knows belong to us that was a source of amusement to us). Sigh. Its very confusing being dropped out of someone's life. Im determined to not do it again. The anxiety it caused thismorning was shocking. Still going to stick to the NC in the real world...
psm04 Posted September 14, 2013 Posted September 14, 2013 You got it out there, and you are moving on. Good for you! We have all had those moments. I've even had them sober lol. My therapist says, 'sometimes you take three steps forward, but then you might have to take a step backward, and that's OK, as long as you keep trying to move forward'. And it looks like you are moving forward!
WakingUp Posted September 14, 2013 Posted September 14, 2013 Yep, the old impulse control is impaired after a few beverages. I find it useful to think to myself "Don't do it now. Go to sleep, and if you still want to do it when you wake up, do it then". This always works for me. Don't beat yourself up over it. Its really not as bad as you think. Just pick yourself up and keep moving forward.
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