whispertomesoftly Posted September 13, 2013 Posted September 13, 2013 I met the man of my dreams a year ago today actually. He was handsome, intelligent, funny, charming, loyal, and so much more. Unfortunately he lived 5 hours away but we struggled and made plans and tried to make a life. We talked on the phone long hours at a time, texting probably hundreds of times a day. Not to give too much info here but he was going through some really heavy things in life including some PTSD as he was an Iraqi War vet who was injured pretty badly. Well over the weekend we got into a huge argument....both said some really nasty things....and he said he must go this part in his life alone. I asked him is that what he wants and what do I need to do with his things....I know, that was the nail in the coffin. He told me he did want to go it alone, that I would never be happy and would also remain in this "place." I tried calling the next day and he wouldn't answer but then texted me all kinds of ugliness, which was to be expected. Throughout the week I have emailed him a few times vacillating between anger and then sorrow. He emailed me back once that was pretty noncommital to anything....and that threw me into a tizzy wondering if he was wanting more or whatever. I finally emailed him today and told him that I was sorry for bothering him so much this week, I realize he was just trying to be nice instead of telling me to f*ck off and that I will try my best to leave him alone. Now this is not my first rodeo with breaking up...but only like my fourth heavy relationship in my lifetime (I am 38 years old) and each time I realize I must go NC but it always takes me a while to adjust. Last time I broke up with my fiance of 4 years I found this forum and I forgot all about it until just now. It helped me tremendously last time with NC, etc. So here's to hoping it will help me again. I still hold out hope but I am also realistic in that it may never happen and we will go our separate ways, especially with 5 hours distance between us. That would be much easier, despite the plans we had made. Anyways, words of encouragement, positive thoughts, etc would be greatly appreciated. Having a pretty hard time right now. Thanks to everyone!!
Philosoraptor Posted September 16, 2013 Posted September 16, 2013 All you can do is take care of yourself. No one deserves to be treated poorly by someone who supposedly cared about them. As you've seen, you're strong enough to move on. Just take care of yourself and know you can do this.
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