Teonanacatl Posted September 9, 2013 Posted September 9, 2013 (edited) So I've been with this girl for quiet a few months and we broke up a month ago, with time I realize where I did my mistakes. I've already apologized to her, thinking it would be okay, but last time we saw each other I rejected her because I knew the bad pattern would just come back easily. But I didn't realise that she was offering me pretty much a chance to surrender which I refused. Now I'm going to travel in order to make some money, to get my family out of misery, to get out of that miserable situation I am in, because I freaking love her passionately. A friend of her tells me she is confused about all of this and that we should talk. I have trouble speaking with my ex, since we are not together anymore, I'm letting her know I'm getting better. During the relationship I let myself go a bit and pretty much cried over her and told her I was really sick mentally, she backed off after a while because she couldn't handle more of myself going mad insane. She made me learn to go straight and she learnt me so many things, I want to make her learn that being motivated to achieve a goal can be awesome, because she's the kind of girl that give up on everything. So guys, what do you think about this? In a way, she's making me go out of that depression, and I'm trying to show her a quality that's entirely part of myself. I don't want to give up on that relationship we had. BUT, the trick here is that she doesn't live in the same town anymore. What kind of love is that? I don't know, I think I'm being inspired by crazy ideas. That, I can give some power to this woman who blessed my hearth. Meanwhile, I have to let go for my own sanity, I'm not searching for a day to day relationship kind of things with her, I'm looking for the lifetime stuff. Because, I know I can make something work based on that. I'm might just be really ****ing crazy and lost right now. I don't even know who I am and she probably feels the same way. Edited September 10, 2013 by a LoveShack.org Moderator
Author Teonanacatl Posted September 10, 2013 Author Posted September 10, 2013 As I see this, I think way too much about everything and I try to control everything. so meh, I might as well just give up. I'm in love in the wrong way guys. it's pathetic. right?
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