Onlyafterdark Posted September 9, 2013 Posted September 9, 2013 Ive posted before in this forum had no help, tonights been the worst ever im missing my wife and kids so badly.Its gone 3am uk time my head is a mess,cant sleep and right now i want to end my pain.My heart feels like im having im having it squeeded,ive not done the 180 or no contact didnt come across all of this till 7 weeks into my separation. She asked for time to heal,i didnt get it i never cheated always a good guy if you read my post you will see my history with her. She cheated on me 6 years ago,i dont think i ever recovered maybe i put my barriers up i just didnt show my wife enough love and affection since we married.She says she tried to tell me but i didnt hear her,now ive lost her and really cant cope.I came to my mums house to give her space but i pestered her txting etc, then went to her friend to see if there was anything i could do to sort it out, she said that was the nail in the coffin.Few days later i made a big mistake she left herself logged in Fb i read sum messages one was a young guy, She was talking things like ur stunning etc, i didnt read it all i was shaking with anger i closed the computer confronted her at work and threw her netbook at the floor, i got home continued reading and it was only her nephew who she hadnt seen since 3 years old.I went to apologise gave her a hug to say sorry but she then said that was the final straw. Since then ive been txting telling her how i love her and after reading many things in here ive realised where i went wrong,but shes saying its over.A few lady friends of mine have been liking posts on facebook,she pulled me on it and went mad i thought wow she still cares iam so confused she has a reaction like that but still says she doesnt want me i need help im very much on the edge please help me if theres any pyschologists on here il post more about my wife
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