Gingerlee Posted September 7, 2013 Posted September 7, 2013 Hey everyone, not sure what this is going to achieve but I need to vent! Went walking with my brother's girlfriend down the woods the other day. Saw my ex's brother. An absolute tidal wave of memories crashed down, such as when I did his hair, and the three of us all got so drunk we ended up in bed spooning each other naked! He said "Hello babe! How are you doing!" and I said I was really really good and asked him how he was. He was with his girlfriend so we didn't talk much, but he said "I'll see you later, take care!" and it just reminded me of being with my ex, and I felt truly sad. I always wondered how much he knew about the breakup and if he knew what a horrid horrid beast his brother actually is in real life. We have been broken up for almost a year now, and NC for almost a month after he decided he hated me and deleted and blocked me from everything. I hear hes moving in with his new girlfriend after three months now, they've made it official. I don't know, I just feel really low recently. I know i'm looking at my ex with huge super shiny rose tinted glasses but it still sucks. I've been hooking up with a guy who is a million times hotter than my ex (seriously looks like he should be the leader of a band or something, 6 ft 2, floppy brown hair, gorgeous body, sexy tats!) but there is still this void that isn't being filled. I often wonder if i'll ever find someone who truly did love me as much as my ex in the first couple of years. I know he was an absolute monster in the last year (used me for sex, confused me constantly with mixed messages, said he loved and missed me, didn't give a toss when the date of our miscarried child would have been born came, told me he hated me for no reason etc) and I know I have to keep reminding myself of that. Sorry for the rant guys! I'm doing okay, I really am, just having a low couple of days.
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