Exactly 3 months today

[hopefulfaerie]

This past June 6 th was such a happy, joyful and wonderful day with the most heartbreaking, devastating night. So many emotions in one day!

 

Some of you know my story but quick recap. He was going through some heavy duty personal things. About a week prior I told him I would let him that even though it would hurt and I would miss him that I would let him go so to speak if that's what he wanted/needed at this time (relationship was still fairly new, 3 months) He made a HUGE sal about not wanting to end things. That he's just overwhelmed and stressed and needs a little time but in no way does he want me out of his life. I told him I understand. (I really did indeed why he wad stressed and continued to give him space and time)

Anyway we still comunicated through text and calls. He still seemed a little down but I must admit it felt good that he came to me to vent for lack of a better word. And I was glad I could be there for him.

 

About a week later he texted and called that fateful morning about how much he wants to see me "tonight" I was working and missed his calls and texts but I thought wow! He reallywants to see me.

 

HE NEVER SHOWED, NEVER CALLED . . NOTHING!!!!

Exactly 3 months ago.

Why he didn't just take the "out " I gave, I'll never know (sigh)

I couldn't have made it easier on him for us to go our separate ways with dignity and no hard feelings.

 

Anyway, I am getting MUCH better and the anxiety and the dreaded hope is gone.

I have learned to give myself closure and not feel too bad about being so mercilessly tossed like garbage. It really did a number on my self esteem but that is coming back with a vengeance. Thank God!!!! The wound is still sore because 3 months and one day ago I was SOOOO happy!!! But I no longer have hope that he will come back and explain or give me closure. Only I can do that.

 

It's been a MISERABLE 3 months but at least now I can see the light at the end of the tumnel.

 

I love, I mean love the upcoming holidays and I am DETERMINED to have a hea great Christmas!!! I should be completely over it by then. I HOPE!!!

And I would NEVER even consider giving him a second chance no matter how "good" his reasons were. A month ago, I would have probably been stupid enough to do that. Ha ha!

 

It may hurt like hell at first but it really does get better!!!

Thanks everyone that has been here helping me get through this nightmare!!

[BC1980]

I'm glad you are feeling better. That is cold that he never even showed and just disappeared leaving you with questions.

 

Best not to even give this guy another thought. I am also looking forward to the holidays coming up soon. I was worried at first because it would be the first without him in 3 years, but who cares? I'm going to be okay.

[hopefulfaerie]

I'm glad you are feeling better. That is cold that he never even showed and just disappeared leaving you with questions.

 

Best not to even give this guy another thought. I am also looking forward to the holidays coming up soon. I was worried at first because it would be the first without him in 3 years, but who cares? I'm going to be okay.

Yes! You are going to be okay! You have a great attitude

 

I suppose if I didn't like this guy so much it would be easier.

 

Just never ever ever would have imagined this type of ending. He seemed to really like me but he was also one of those guys that genuinely liked women and was almost protective of them. He has sisters, daughters etc. And his line of work is all about saving people.

 

Funny how he can risk his life for a stranger but can't even send a goodbye text to a woman he supposedly liked so much.

 

Oh well, live and learn I guess.

[unexpectedlyhere]

Life is varied huh?

 

You seem to be doing really well, and I like your Christmas deadline. Although I think... you can make it Halloween!

[hopefulfaerie]

Life is varied huh?

 

You seem to be doing really well, and I like your Christmas deadline. Although I think... you can make it Halloween!

Thank you!!! I think you are right! O like your deadline much better

 

One thing that really helps and makes me so proud of myself is I never sent any angry or malicious texts or calls.

NOTHING FROM ME!

 

I really like the fact that even though what he did was horrible and much less than I deserved, I never brought that to his attention. He already knows.

I kept my cool, didn't come unhindged and remained classy.

He can never take that away.

To this day, I never said one harsh word or dissrespected him.

He's not worth saying ugly things to, just to temporaryily feel better.

Thanks again and HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

[saltyfishhead666]

This past June 6 th was such a happy, joyful and wonderful day with the most heartbreaking, devastating night. So many emotions in one day!

 

Some of you know my story but quick recap. He was going through some heavy duty personal things. About a week prior I told him I would let him that even though it would hurt and I would miss him that I would let him go so to speak if that's what he wanted/needed at this time (relationship was still fairly new, 3 months) He made a HUGE sal about not wanting to end things. That he's just overwhelmed and stressed and needs a little time but in no way does he want me out of his life. I told him I understand. (I really did indeed why he wad stressed and continued to give him space and time)

Anyway we still comunicated through text and calls. He still seemed a little down but I must admit it felt good that he came to me to vent for lack of a better word. And I was glad I could be there for him.

 

About a week later he texted and called that fateful morning about how much he wants to see me "tonight" I was working and missed his calls and texts but I thought wow! He reallywants to see me.

 

HE NEVER SHOWED, NEVER CALLED . . NOTHING!!!!

Exactly 3 months ago.

Why he didn't just take the "out " I gave, I'll never know (sigh)

I couldn't have made it easier on him for us to go our separate ways with dignity and no hard feelings.

 

Anyway, I am getting MUCH better and the anxiety and the dreaded hope is gone.

I have learned to give myself closure and not feel too bad about being so mercilessly tossed like garbage. It really did a number on my self esteem but that is coming back with a vengeance. Thank God!!!! The wound is still sore because 3 months and one day ago I was SOOOO happy!!! But I no longer have hope that he will come back and explain or give me closure. Only I can do that.

 

It's been a MISERABLE 3 months but at least now I can see the light at the end of the tumnel.

 

I love, I mean love the upcoming holidays and I am DETERMINED to have a hea great Christmas!!! I should be completely over it by then. I HOPE!!!

And I would NEVER even consider giving him a second chance no matter how "good" his reasons were. A month ago, I would have probably been stupid enough to do that. Ha ha!

 

It may hurt like hell at first but it really does get better!!!

Thanks everyone that has been here helping me get through this nightmare!!

 

 

You are a strong cookie. I'm so glad you made it through those past 3 months and your still here to tell the tale!

 

Here's too the next 3 and here's too Christmas (soooooooo excited)

 

Xx

[reddragon588]

Same day as me, every day is tough but it gets better every day. One of my friends was just in a breakup this week. Seeing him in the beginning stages reminds me where I was and where I've come. I think I'm a better and more stronger person than I was when it all went down. You are too!