Not sure how she sees it...

[yukikaze203]

Hello, first time posting here. I want to hear a second opinion for my situation right now, so here goes.

 

I was pretty inexperienced with girls as a teenager since my high school was a private all boys school and I spent my entire teen life there.

 

After graduating from hs and entering uni, I met my gf 3 years ago to the month and became gf/bf in a month. She was my first gf and I'm her third bf. However, I was her first serious and long term bf. Her first bf was not very good to her, and the other two only lasted a month or so.

 

We liked each other very much, but I've made mistakes over the past 3 years to damage our relationship (nothing like cheating though). We broke up this past July when I was out of town, with me being the dumpee. I went all desperate for the first 2 days begging her to come back, but I realized it was pointless and I promised myself to go NC until last week (that's when I came back) when I called her to catch up over coffee. She was slightly bitter at the beginning of the phone call, but she softened up over time and said "I thought you didn't care [about the breakup]", presumably because I went NC. Anyways, she agreed to meet 2 weeks later (this week's Saturday), but I said I will confirm the time with her before the meet sometime this week. I called her this past Sunday at night to confirm with her as promised, but she didn't pick up. An hour later she calls back saying she was watching a show with friends and said she's busy Saturday but would like to meet up for a drink right now. So I went to pick her up at a subway station and we go to downtown to get a drink. We end up going to see the night view of the city after I suggest the idea. We spend maybe 5 minutes there before she says she needs to go to the washroom and we leave to find one and I ended up dropping her off at her house after at around 2AM. This whole meet took 4 hours and nothing happened, we just talked and had fun. I should point out that it's my birthday the next day after I met her that night (it's important) and I hinted it at her and she said she forgot that it was my bday. She asks me what I'm doing and I said since I'm sick, I might just have a small dinner with friends, but it's not confirmed yet.

 

The next morning I texted her a good morning text and said i hope she had a fun time last night. She replies with a simple "good morning" in the afternoon (about 4 hours later) and calls me an hour after saying her roommate has a party at her house, but she doesn't want to be there and asks if I want to have dinner with her. I take a minute to think, and then she says she could just find friends if I don't want to. At the spur of the moment, I decide to just have dinner with her instead. She enthusiastically suggested a few places for dinner, including buying groceries and making food at my house, but we ended up just eating at a Japanese restaurant in downtown and went bar hopping after I parked my car at her house. We both ended up getting pretty drunk and started feeding each other food and getting a little touchy, but nothing sexual. We finish drinking at a place near her house and I asked if i can stay over and nagged her a bit, but she declined and I had to get back home alone after walking her home.

 

The next morning I called her to get my car back, but she has lunch with a guy later and I won't make it in time since I had stuff to do in the morning. I ended up getting my car after her lunch and I took her out around the city and had dinner (I paid for dinner). I talked about yesterday night with her and apologized for nagging her to stay over, but she says she doesn't remember it. I then talk about a few other things that happened yesterday night and she remembers most of the things that happened, but when I ask her about the touchy part, she doesn't recall. She then tells me she does it to everyone these days when she's drunk (I know for a fact she can handle her alcohol though...she just gets emotional and highly sociable when drunk). During that day, she would say bits and pieces of what she and that guy talked about during their lunch and said they will meet again for a late night snack sometime. I ask if she likes him, but she says no. Also, throughout the day, I would find opportunities such as when crossing the street to put my hand on her lower back as a "let's cross the street" motive, but she would walk faster than me so my hands wouldn't be able to touch her. I ask her if she's busy this weekend, but she says she's busy. I then ask if she's free next weekend, but she says she's always busy with a small grin and a joking tone. Anyways, we finish up the date over coffee on the patio at a coffee shop and I drop her off at home. I haven't talked to her since. (which is only 12 hours ago)

 

I still really want to get back with her, but I don't know what she's thinking right now. I feel like she's giving me mixed messages, but I'm not sure if I'm just delusional. She says she had a good time when I ask her at the end of each meet though. Could you give me your general opinions and/or answer the questions below? Thanks so much!

 

1. Did she want to meet up with me that night when I picked her up at the station because she was using me to get a ride home?

 

2. Do you think she called me the second day (roommate's party night) to see me, or just using me as a person to hang out with?

 

3. Do you think she actually remembers us getting touchy and feeding each other, but fakes not remembering it?

 

4. Is she telling me the stuff with the guy to get me jealous?

 

5. Since we met for 3 consecutive days since NC, should I give her a bit of time (like a week) before hanging out again including no text?

 

6. I'm tempted to talk to her tonight or tmrw, is that a bad idea? (It'll be the 4th consecutive day of contact since NC if I do talk to her tonight)

 

7. When, if ever, should I have a serious talk with her about getting back together?