elizabeth21 Posted September 3, 2013 Posted September 3, 2013 (edited) We broke up at the end of April after dating for a year and 3 months. He's 17 and I'm 18. We were each other's first bf/gf. He wasn't a really good bf but he was so sweet to me until we got towards our 1 year. It just got too hard from him since he was busy with his sport and he barely had time for me. He thought I deserved to be treated better than what he could give me. He said he didn't want a relationship right now and doesn't know when he'll be ready for one. I cared about him a lot and I thought he did too. I stayed with him longer than I should have and instead of ending it like everyone said to, I didn't cause I liked him so much! So I ended up being hurt in the end. I tried to be the best gf. He never did anything for me and always liked his alone time. We texted a few times back n forth before bed n that was it. It got down to seeing him once or twice a week too. It was so frustrating for me. We did nothing for our 1 year anniversary. So I'm glad that part is done but I did like being with him when it was good. Well when we broke up I cried and he said he thought about it 2 weeks before it happened so it wasn't hard for him in that moment. He said he just did a couple tears the night before thinking about our relationship. After we broke up he liked this other girl right away who I thought he kinda liked while we dated. But he never did anything with her while we dated. Now he seems to like my "friend" who kinda liked him while we dated. He sits in church with her and they talk all night. It's a little hard to see. I guess not because I still have feelings for him, but I miss when that was us. Idk if it's cause it's summer he has time for this chick or if he's just looking for a female friend since he doesn't have a lot of friends, but it still sucks to see. Towards the end of our relationship he was too lazy to sit with me in church so it hurts to see him do that with this girl. His family was nice to me after the break up still but now they seem to have disowned me and I've been replaced by this girl. I know I deserve a real man and I get excited to think of how nice it'll be to have a real bf who can wear the pants but when I think of how me n my ex used to be, it hurts. I miss the old us before it all got frustrating and the fun we'd had. I wish I didn't date him so I at least could be friends with him. He seemed to turn into a completely different guy and kind of a douche bag. Idk why I miss this jerk sometimes. How can I completely let go and not get annoyed when I see him and this girl? Everyone thinks he's just this perfect Pastor's son but I saw a different side no one did and it sucks no one gets it. Sometimes I think I just miss being in love or having a bf, but I think I really do miss being with him. We had some of the greatest times together and this break up didn't seem to effect him that much. He moved on so quick. :/ He ignores me in person and acts weird. Advice? It hurts cause it had to be that girl he chooses to like. I thought she liked him while we dated. Now she thinks she's all that cause she's "in" with the pastor's family acting like she's popular at church. My relationship with his sister kinda has gone sour too. We used to be best friends but she never acts like a real friend. I want to leave my church cause I want to stop caring about people who don't care about me. Idk why I let myself get hurt like this. Edited September 3, 2013 by elizabeth21
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