frederickkk Posted September 2, 2013 Posted September 2, 2013 Haven't seen her in 5 months. Restraining order still in place. peak frustration anger all rolled into one. saw her mother's mate in the the pub last night. all the usual "you've come really far this past year". Like hell I have, and I am not buggering off anywhere. Enough of the deterrents. I told her exactly where I stand. Looking forward to the release of the new macbook pros so I can start fresh with music production. Not booked a ticket anywhere yet. How can this girl stay so silent? I've heard she has put a tonne of weight on. She can't be happy. Its 5am in the UK. I don't sleep anymore because of this bull ****.
Author frederickkk Posted September 2, 2013 Author Posted September 2, 2013 i doubt it is that very much. a new dude.
Renard99 Posted September 2, 2013 Posted September 2, 2013 Haven't seen her in 5 months. Restraining order still in place. peak frustration anger all rolled into one. saw her mother's mate in the the pub last night. all the usual "you've come really far this past year". Like hell I have, and I am not buggering off anywhere. Enough of the deterrents. I told her exactly where I stand. Looking forward to the release of the new macbook pros so I can start fresh with music production. Not booked a ticket anywhere yet. How can this girl stay so silent? I've heard she has put a tonne of weight on. She can't be happy. Its 5am in the UK. I don't sleep anymore because of this bull ****. She knows exactly where you stand.... and that's why she got the restraining order..... and why she hasn't spoken to you..... and why she isn't with you. As for you having enough of the deterrents........ really Frederickk? You really can't see what they're trying to say after over a year? You do know what a deterrent is right? It's and attempt to stop someone from doing something. She's trying to stop you from doing what you are currently doing and the reason for that is: SHE....... DOESN'T.......WANT.......TO.....BE......WITH......YOU I know love can be strong but I completely fail to understand how someone still can't comprehend this after so long. 1
Author frederickkk Posted September 2, 2013 Author Posted September 2, 2013 What I can't comprehend is how she was with me for two years, and never felt the same the entire time.
Author frederickkk Posted September 2, 2013 Author Posted September 2, 2013 it hasn't died though. the way i acted was fight for it, get stressed and put on a major offensive in trying to sort it out. i know that
Renard99 Posted September 2, 2013 Posted September 2, 2013 it hasn't died though. the way i acted was fight for it, get stressed and put on a major offensive in trying to sort it out. i know that YES IT HAS! This may come as a shock to you but a relationship requires two people.... This is where you're going wrong. You seem to think that because you're fighting for the relationship then it keeps going with two if you. Wrong. You're on your own and only currently in a relationship with her in your mind. She has gone. Fell out of love with you. It happens, my ex left me for the same reason. The only thing that's left of your relationship is in your head. I'm going to write this here again so that you can ignore it like all other advice given.......... SEE A THERAPIST 1
Author frederickkk Posted September 2, 2013 Author Posted September 2, 2013 with all respect, no talking therapy is going to help me get over it. i talk about it with friends, family, here, the samaritans. nothing will change my feelings. and i can't act on impulse any more. thought about texting the mother, but that's pointless. if her daughter wants to move on, then go through with it. i have put my life on hold. i want to believe that she can truly move on inside, but i know that won't be the case. there is nothing bad about me. zero. i was with an ex for 7 years. i broke it off with her, was unsure. she moved on. if i saw her today, i can say i feel nothing. she is getting married next week. we are not mates on facebook, and we rarely message one another. i have no issue with doing it, apart from annoying her current fiance. no feelings whatsoever. it is different with this one. i was too invested, marriage, kids, rest of life. i fell in love with her when i met her. i really cannot comprehend it. and who has replaced me? and why have they replaced me? this is why it doesn't make sense. the grass isn't greener on the other side. its just burying a relationship, burying feelings. i wish her good luck, but i can safely say here i will never get over it. i do live somewhere where women are few and far between, but no travelling, no interaction with someone else. if i can, then amazing, but i cant see it happening. she will move on from me far easier. i am older, have nothing new to offer. i need to start rebuilding my life, but i find it impossible to do so without her.
Author frederickkk Posted September 2, 2013 Author Posted September 2, 2013 when the cops were called, it was either her or the parents. the parents charged me in the end. i saw her two weeks after, mixed messages, that was back in easter.
Author frederickkk Posted September 3, 2013 Author Posted September 3, 2013 I will not violate the order once. I just sit here, and all I wonder, is why did we split? I try and find a reason, i can't see one. She was younger than me. In a lot of ways very mature, but fundamentally emotionally immature. i'm 27 in two months, she'll be 21. too many times where there were phone calls to her mum where she was upset / didn't get what she wanted. its not choosing about getting over her. the only number i've done on her is try to sort it out. when she rejected me last summer, I collapsed. all i wonder is why can I not make her happy? what is stopping her? there was no weakness in our relationship. This is a big deal for me. I haven't moved on in a year. And I'm lost with what to do with the rest of my life. She was it.
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