lh11 Posted September 1, 2013 Posted September 1, 2013 It's been 2 years since my ex and I have broken up. Since then, he has met a girl he is "really taken by", I know this as the last time I spoke to him was 8 months ago when he told me they were together, he was just short of telling me he was in love with her. They are still together. As far as I know, she is 17 still and he is 22 and they do a whole load of drugs together. That is beside the point though, it has been 2 years and I still cannot get over him. It was one of the hardest things I've had to deal with in my life so far, last year, 2012, was the my worst year yet. I was very depressed and I had to leave school/college and did nothing for the year. I was also sent to a Self Harm and Suicidal Prevention clinic for 3 months, that was my lowest point. Currently, I am sat at my computer reading old online conversations we had in 2009 from when we first dated, and listening to "our song" and bawling. What is wrong with me? Why can I not get over him? Will I ever? I need some sort of reassurance, hope, anything. Also, I'm terrified I will never fall for someone in the way that I did for him, again. Sometimes I still feel like I love him and that scares me. Advice, please! My family and friends are sick to death of this now.
shvrk Posted September 2, 2013 Posted September 2, 2013 I'm sorry you feel that way. Maybe you can try getting out and running around your neighborhood. I've been doing that lately, and it's been helping a lot. The other day I did feel like I had nothing to give the world and was at a low point. I then went on a long night jog, where I didn't care if anything happened to me, ****, I even hoped something would happen to me. I wanted to die that night, but as I kept going, I realized that's ultimately not what I wanted to do, and if someone didn't want me after everything that we have had together, it's not worth my life, or this much crying. It helps just get you thinking logically, and pushes the horrible thoughts away. You still have a life to live. It's what I keep telling myself when I go out. It helps. 1
Renard99 Posted September 2, 2013 Posted September 2, 2013 I know it's difficult but I recommend not looking over things from your time together with him. Those online conversations and your song. They will keep the thoughts of the relation fresh i your mind making you relive it over and over again. It's the equivalent of walking into a wall and hurting yourself, then, instead of backing up and changing direction, you just walk straight back into the same wall and hurt yourself again. By removing all the things that are to do with him, or remind you of him and the relationship, you are effectively removing the wall. You can keep walking in the direction you want to without the obstructions. It's not the only thing that needs doing but it's a good place to start. :-)
nerdlingZA Posted September 2, 2013 Posted September 2, 2013 You are Doing all the things that will set you back & ruin your life - not going to school for 1 year < This is just bizzer - dwelling on your computer < This won't help you , you only depressing yourself more & more , I say take a break from this site if you can - reading old conversations < after my break up with my Ex I did read our old conversations it ****ed me apart I stopped immediately & deleted them
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