Woodrow7381 Posted September 1, 2013 Posted September 1, 2013 Sorry to bother you guys but I'm hurting. My ex and I broke up about 6 weeks ago. It wasn't a good relationship but I loved her. First off our schedules conflicted so we really didn't get to spend any quality time together and she was always kinda down about school, family, work and her not having any friends. She worked weekends and went to school on week nights and I work days so our eight month relationship was usually just a few hours a night and on the phone . right before the Fourth of July we got into a big fight and I broke up with her because she was so negative and so on but the next day I realized I wanted to be with her and we made up. So we sat down and talked about our relationship and what we both needed and I thought we were good and I truly tried to do everything she said she wished I would to make us better. Then one night I go over to her house to stay with her. I brought her dinner and a few things I thought she would like because our relationship was going really good again after we had our discussion and she just ambushes me and ends it and tells me she had been talking to a guy from work. I was crushed but I took the high road and wished her the best although she was being so cold. Next day she comes over and exchanges stuff. I apologize for my faults in the relationship and wished her the best. She said she just didn't feel loved. So I went NC and a week later she knocks on my door saying she regretted what happened (never said sorry) and wanted to get back together. I am in love with this women but I am not just going to take that. Call it pride, selfishness or whatever but I consider her actions cheating and I won't accept that. I would never do it to her although she was always paranoid that Two weeks later I go out with my friends to kind of get it out of my mind and drink to much and send her an email when I got home basically calling her out for her actions and asking how she could be so cold. Wasn't mean but just stating how hurt I was. Immediately sent another email the next day saying I'm was drunk and disregard the next morning. She sent me one back saying that she was hurt too and if I want to blame her for everything to feel better that's fine. I apologized again and wished her the best. A week later she sent me another email out of the blue saying she regretted nothing and just met a guy who confirmed her feelings and everything was my fault and how she is just having fun and is so happy now. So I wished her the best and said I would never contact her again. I was and sadly still am in love with this women but I planned on moving on. Fast forward to today. Haven't spoke with her since the last email. Been trying to better my self and keeping busy. Went on a date last night even though I do not want any type of relationship right now. Things have been going fairly good. Good days ad bad but moving on. I went to the lake today and come home and was going to go over to a friends house so I stop at a gas station by the house and she is there! We live 35 miles apart and I know if she is up here she is going to go see a guy or something. I saw her and kind of stayed in the back till she was gone and I do not think she saw me but all the progress I have made is completely gone. I left my friends house and came home because I am feeling so bad from just seeing her from a distance. As far away as she lives what are the damn chances of running into her like that. I chose to not get ack with her because I know my feelings aside that if she went with someone else once she will do it again and that she never loved me or respected me. Sorry for the rant but just seeing her from a distance completely destroyed me. I feel worse right now than I did when it happened. I think I made the right decision but it is so damn hard to live with.
TrblinMN Posted September 1, 2013 Posted September 1, 2013 Sucks that you saw her. I don't see my ex often but when I do, it still hurts. And I am almost 6 months since our breakup. Chin up! You are not alone.
keepontruckin Posted September 1, 2013 Posted September 1, 2013 OP, the way you walk is just the way you walk... It attracted her at one point in time. And eventually you'll get back to the "real you," and you'll attract another... Trust me...
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