Is there something wrong with me..?

[EsmerKiss77]

So, i am currently 6 months pregnant. When i originally found out i had been broken up with my bf for 2 weeks, although i felt like things weren't gonna work out between us i decided to try and make it work. 2 months later and we were back to arguing, etc so i broke it off. Fast forward 3 months and hes still around for appointment check ups etc but has realized were not going to be together. Throughout the last few months hes questioned me quite often on my decision to not be with him, and that its not right and he doesnt understand because he didnt do anything wrong... and its true to an extent, hes just too dramatic and sensitive to me and i cant stand the constant arguing. I just feel like were not a good match. So its me.

 

Now, an ex from years ago recently came back into my life as well, and since i havent been in a relationship in 3 months i'm some what open to dating. Obviously my child is my priority but dating and seeing how it goes doesnt strike me as a bad thing. So, we have been talking for about a month or so and he tells me he loves me always has and wants to be here for me and my child. Mind you, we havent seen each other in about 2 years. I tell him id be open to reconnecting etc but im not trying to jump into a serious relationship. That hasnt kept him from trying tho. Hes a really sweet guy and i believe he genuinely loves me, but i just feel like hes too needy and sensitive. A few times ill come home from a long day of work and want to sleep and he'll text me and wanna talk and not understand why im just not in the mood. It just feels like too much pressure on me. I dont know. But once again, i know its not the guy its me.

 

In one sense i feel like im being selfish on the other i dont want to just settle with someone that i feel isnt right for me. Not to mention, pregnant me and my baby are my top concern right now. Im just confused. Im afraid im pushing people away as well and like most people im afraid ill end up being alone... then i think fear of being alone shouldnt be the reason i stay with someone... :/ is there something wrong with me for real? Or am i being legit?

[Mrlonelyone]

It is a well known fact that pregnancy effects the way women think about men.

 

Organic prepartum and postpartum psychoses - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

 

The boyfriend you had before was someone that your subconcious said had good genetics even if he wasn't the right kind of personality.

 

OR

 

You are the problem in that you broke up with the father of your baby who as you said, did nothing wrong. The mood swings and effects of pregnancy on you may have made you seek arguments, perhaps as a way to distance yourself from him? Who knows.

 

Think about your kid. The father is there and willing to make it work. For the kids sake don't destroy your relationship with him.

[EsmerKiss77]

Ive thought about the second one actually, but i dont start arguments with him, its just his personality to be confrontational. I do want my son to know who his dad is and have a relationship with him, but i myself cant do it. There's a few other reasons why i broke it off with him, which ill admit were apparent from the get and i just ignored the red flags. 1. He has 2 other children which do not live with him or his ex (for the last 6 years), 2. He is still in party mode although he is in his 30s, 3. He lives with his mom and hasn't made any attempt to move out, it just get worse and worse. It just couldnt work. But my other ex who actually has his **** together and wants to be with me i push away. Maybe i am too hormonal for relationships right now, lol. Although my pregnancy has been drama free and great since ive left my babys dad.

[EsmerKiss77]

Also, meant to say although i cant see myself working it out with my baby's dad, this isnt going to keep me from letting him see our son. I just dont want a romantic relationship with him.