I Hate Being Me

[Gala242]

I hate being me cause being me totally sucks, sometimes I wish I had never been born.

 

Its my birthday today and I’m now 24 and Im still looking for my first relationship but now I’ve come to realize that it will never come. I will be lonely for the rest of my life and I might as well get use to it. I know what ya’ll will say the routine “hey don’t be down on yourself, just keep trying eventually something good will happen”. Well I’ve been trying since I was 18 and nothing, its like I’ve been cursed or something.

 

It’s amazing how people take the simplest things for granted, for instance my best friend has been together with his girl now for over 5 years, she is an amazing girl loyal, beautiful, and really loves him. I would give anything to have someone like that in my life yet he takes it for granted because he has been cheating on her for years and I have been witnessing it time after time.

 

Why is life so unfair? I’m a nice guy but why is it that girls never give me a chance but they go crazy for guys like my best friend who is a player and who only wants them for sex and nothing else.

 

I hate it, I’m so jealous of him, sometimes I wish that I could change be like him, treat girls like sh*t and not give a care in the world, maybe then a girl might actually want me.

 

I actually thought that my bad luck was finally gone, I heard at work that this girl had been looking for me named crystal but I didn’t know who she was, I found out that she was the neice of a lady who works there so I talked to her and she actually gave me her number. I called and she said that she saw me at work before and she wanted to get to know me. We talked for a couple days, I wanted to meet her and she said she was going to pass by my work so when I finally saw her I was amazed she was so beautiful I was shocked that this girl was actually interested in me. I was happy the happiest that I’ve ever been in my life. So happy that I didn’t notice the strange look she had on her face. She said she was going to give me a call later that night, well that night it was getting late so I called her and no answer I then texted her and got no reply, the following day I texted her again and she texted back but said that she was busy now and that she’d give me a call later and now I’m still waiting on her to call.

 

Now after talking with a few people who know her I found out that I was actually NOT the guy who she saw at work it was someone else, that’s why she blew me off, and to make it worse it came on the day before my birthday.

 

I’m really depressed now, I’ve even had thoughts of killing myself I feel so alone, I have all these feeling of anger and sadness bottled up inside me I don’t know what to do…

[moimeme]

First of all, be good to yourself. It's your birthday. Do stuff you like to do. Eat food you enjoy. Hang out with people you like.

 

Secondly, never make the mistake of thinking that the past is also the future. That you haven't had a gf YET does not mean you will NEVER have one! Life doesn't work that way.

 

Here's what to do. Get busy. Find hobbies you enjoy. Join clubs. Take up sports or politics or charity work or music. Go out and do things - even by yourself. Take lessons. Broaden your life. Have new experiences.

You'll meet people and one of these days, one of those people will introduce you to someone you'll want to go out with.

 

In the meantime, don't waste your life sitting in your home being miserable. There is plenty of life to enjoy even by yourself so go enjoy it! You have your life, your health, and a best friend. Right there you're ahead of a lot of folks. Enjoy your birthday and make it the beginning of enjoying every single day. We are only here for so long, after all.

[meanon]

People often meet someone when they least expect it. There's a reason for that. They are too busy enjoying themselves to be worried about finding a partner. People are attracted to those that enjoy life. If you hate yourself, it's less likely that someone will love you. If you hate your life, that's a good start. Now you can do something about it. Forget about finding a girlfriend and rediscover the simple pleasures in life and in people. The rest will come. It will.

[Sukotto]

How do you expect to meet someone if your stuck in at home, you haven't mentioned what your social life is like. The only way your going to meet someone is if your out spreading yourself about. The more often you go out the more people that you'll see and the higher your chances of finding someone.

 

So enjoy your birthday and then tomorrow start thinking about doing more social activities.

[Naive]

I know there are times when you may feel bad and it seems that everything is going exactly the opposite of how you want it to go but you have to be strong and try your best on not letting things get to you. It's hard, I know, but what do you win with making yourself feel worse??? Things are not going to get any better if you put yourself down. Might as well at least TRY to see things in a positive way. See the cup half full instead of half empty. You can do it, just try

[Soul Doubt]

You Know you remind me of a friend of Mine. Cept he is 25. I hear the same things from him everyday, His envy for my releationship, In fact if didn't know better I'd say this post was from him, under an assumed name or something.

 

First you need to not gauge ur life on the girl on your arm/or lack there of. You are an adult now. Your self worth should not be your SO. In order to be able to get, and maintain a relationship you have have confidence, and you have to be able to say you can love yourself, because if you can't do that you can't Love someone else...and girls man, they are like ppredetors or something, if you are insecure they can smell it. If you are clingy they know it after the very first sentence that falls out of your mouth. My friend I mentioned Before, and I'd bet you too, has said exactly everything you said in the Email since HS. If you are truly the good Guy you say you are you will find that one you are looking for, you just have to stop looking, Live your lIfe like you decided that single is the way to go forever, and in No time you'll be beating them back with a stick.

[Huntr777]

It sounds to me like you're kinda having a pity party for yourself. Believe me, I've done that myself and it got me absolutely nowhere! Read what everybody here is posting, and follow up on them. They're just trying to help you, and they have some great ideas. Just remember you are the only person who can change your situation.

 

I'm sure that every guy (and probably more than a couple of ladies) here have felt the same way you do right now, so you're not alone. You just need to start slowly (don't expect miracles overnight), and work your way through some of the suggestions.

 

Here's one of my own...join an online dating service. Believe me, the stigma of online dating as pretty much vanished over the last 5 years or so. Heck I believe Yahoo personals are free to try...just a suggestion. Everybody here is trying to help you, but you're the only one who can do it. Good luck!

 

Hunter