So so so close to break 7 weeks NC

[Doingmybestt]

I have been a long time lurker on this website and î guess ît îs rîght time to write before anbig turn in my life.

 

Well friends,

 

I am a nice guy. Very very nice guy and i guess that bored my ex and she broke up with me 13 weeks ago with the excuse of "not wanting a relationship and just be alone". Anyway, i begged her as usual and tried to change her mind for 7 weeks but nothing happened and actually it got worst and she told me to " get out of her life" and this just tore my heart apart.

 

I kept my promise and i have been on Nc for 6 weeks. Do i miss her? Yes. Do i love her? I guess i still have feelings. Why i want to contact her and want her back? Because the idea of she will sleep with someone îs hurting me. Lowers my energy and when i look past i see that i did lots of wrong and missed her. I wish î wasnt that nice, i wish i didnt put her in the middle of my universe. I wish i didnt treat her like a princess and be more independent.

 

Anyway, i have been checking her photos lately and she is so cute so pretty. I remember her qualities. She sings jazz, dances great, rides glider as hobby, everyone loves her, guys fall in love with her, perfect combination of sexy and cute. And i missed my chances with her.

 

Since break up i am so much better. More focused on myself, hitting gym, swimming, swing dancing, hardworker at work and workin for my dream company, started flirting with lots of girls. Bottom line is i am so much better mentally and physically.

 

I wanted to vent and opened this thread and also wanted to ask your opinion on something.

 

1. How do you deal the thought of "what if" question in your mind? I thînk like what if i wrote her and everything be perfect. The unknown sucks.

 

2. How do you deal the sickening thought of your ex will sleep with somebody? I dont know why it bothers me because before me she slept with somebody too.

 

3. How can i be great with ladies? I am a goodlooking gal and lots of girls are înteresred in me but they mostly want relationship not hangout. I dont want a relationship right now. Just want casual hookups because i need to have a lot of experience with girls. I see this lack of skill in me.

 

4. Am i really going to get over this ex? She was a real wife material. So hardwking, so smart, so social, talented, cute. I fell like even if i have a relationsip in future i will never get over her.

 

5. How can i get the mindset of "not giving a ****" to anything emotionally. In my relationships and social interractions. I think that is wha i need to develope.

 

Thank you for your reading.

 

Cheers

[L.D.702]

I have no advice to you but I am going through the same thing right now. My ex is also a cute girl and she would tell me about all the guys that hit on her at work or outside of work. She was also hard working, responsible, and actually knows how to cook. I always think about her sleeping with someone else and it feels like **** (we both lost our virginity to each other).

 

But what we have to think about is that eventually it's going to happen and yes they are going to enjoy it. We broke up a week ago after 7 years going out from age 16.

[Doingmybestt]

I have no advice to you but I am going through the same thing right now. My ex is also a cute girl and she would tell me about all the guys that hit on her at work or outside of work. She was also hard working, responsible, and actually knows how to cook. I always think about her sleeping with someone else and it feels like **** (we both lost our virginity to each other).

 

But what we have to think about is that eventually it's going to happen and yes they are going to enjoy it. We broke up a week ago after 7 years going out from age 16.

 

Yes they will sleep with someone and they will enjoy it. This idea hurts pretty much.

[L.D.702]

Yes they will sleep with someone and they will enjoy it. This idea hurts pretty much.

 

Hell yes it does. I always get pictures in my head about her smiling and enjoying it while another man is inside her. This kind of thinking hurts like nothing I've ever experienced and I just can't bare the thought of it. But I know that it will happen someday and if I ever find out I think I might kill myself.

[Doingmybestt]

Hell yes it does. I always get pictures in my head about her smiling and enjoying it while another man is inside her. This kind of thinking hurts like nothing I've ever experienced and I just can't bare the thought of it. But I know that it will happen someday and if I ever find out I think I might kill myself.

 

I feel like my ex already did it.

[malin819]

why don't you just do the same go date and have fun?!