cat Posted August 26, 2013 Posted August 26, 2013 Hi-- I posted last night about getting dumped by my rebound who promised me the moon and hte stars and everything I always wanted... and I believed him. I really wanted it to be true... then he went back to his ex. Because it turns out I wasn't what he wanted after all... He's not a healthy person-- which begs the question of WHY I'd let an unhealthy person into my life! WHY WHY WHY. I have so much to work on! BUt the worst part is I miss him! I missed waking up next to him this morning. I missed his kisses and his sweet texts and all of it. The shock of being alone is pretty intense. So I'm posting now because I'm fighting the urge to reach out. I have good friends messaging me on FB asking how i"m doing and sending encouragement and love, and I'm so laid open with pain about this (and many other hard, unrelated things that have happened the last few months) that I have nothing left to do but grieve. Somewhere inside I want him out of my life, but right now I want to talk to him, to have things be normal, and just go back. What do you do when you want to contact???? But you are trying to start NC?? The last time we talked was yesterday evening around 5. We were texting back and forth some crap and I was reading on LS at the same time and I thought "he's pretty clear about not wanting/respecting me." So my last text was "You know what? Never mind. You don't love me, and that's all I need to know. Take care." I am going to change his name in my email address book (in case he emails me) to "Dumped me. Went back to his ex" so I have a reminder. What else can I do when I want to talk to him? This SUCKS!
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