melell Posted August 26, 2013 Posted August 26, 2013 I was with my ex for 8 years. now mid twenties. We have been broken up for 2 months. He left me because his priorities became partying and drink/drug. Fist 4 weeks I was in LC, I was worried. The second has been strict NC. I missed him so much and just wanted him back, and that is turned into complete hate and anger. I cringe about the way I let him treat me and the things I put up with. It is pure anger. He just constantly projected his problems on me, his temper was insane, and even when the things that made him angry were unrelated to me he would take it out on me. It was horrible, and I would just put up with it like it was normal. I don't understand how I can go from being madly in love with someone who I shared my youth with to at the very nicest wanting to bat him. All of my sympathy, support, and empathy towards him has disappeared. The only hope I have is that I never ever see or talk to him again. What is going on with me? Is this a step towards healing? I have never felt this way before, and never imagined I would feel it about him.
madmaxinlove Posted August 26, 2013 Posted August 26, 2013 It sounds like the anger is coming from a long and memorable history of 8 years with your ex that is being destroyed by drugs and alcohol. Of course everybody knows, drugs and alcohol brings out the worst in people and as long as he continues going down that path, He won't change. But one day he will wake up and realize what he had and possibly lost. Only time will tell, but don't give up. He has a heart for you too, it is just clouded with negative influences. 1
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