Ben_x Posted August 24, 2013 Posted August 24, 2013 (edited) I have been in here before and read some of the stories.. Finally had the courage to try and post.. I hope you guys can help me. I recently broke up with my ex of 5 years, because of her trust issues and ultra jealous ways. I felt so horrible and wanted her back all the time but I knew she was no good for me. Always putting me down and nothing I would do was good enough. 2 months past and I got in touch with her again, and like previous Break ups, she was heartless. Eventually I got her to come around. We tried talking for awhile but it wasn't working. One day she comes over and slaps me in the face because I made her mad. So I tell her just to leave. She leaves my house crying and ends up at my brother's ex dorm, my ex meets the guy that ruined his relationship, he tells my ex that me And my bro go on double dates with other girls while being in a relationship. Which never happened. 2 weeks go by and I try to call her again, I get no answer. So one Day I decide to wait for her outside her house. She agrees to talk to me, but before that she slugs me in the chest, and calls me a cheater, that this guy told her I would go on dates with other girls. I try and explain but nothing works. She then goes to tell me she was flirting with her nieghbor. And just started to text. And she leaves me crying outside her house. By this time I was already talking to a girl that was really interested in me, and treated my really good and actually cared about my feelings. 4 days go by. That Monday I wanted to see my ex. But I got no reply. So that Wednesday I decide to write her a letter and draw her a really nice pictures. She gets it a day later and posts all these nasty things online. My brother showed me.. And my world came crashing down. So I decide to go NC. About a month passes by, and on my brothers b day, me and him decide to go eat... Turns out both are Ex's are there. I sit by my self.. And my brother convinces me to sit with them. I say hi to my ex and just sit. She had a huge smile and is acting like nothing has happened. Even holds my hand under the table. We leave, and she gets into my car. Kisses me and asks me if I was talking to someone. I told her yes, she starts to cry and walks out. She texts me the next day and tells me to leave her alone and that I'm worthless. I ask her why, she then tells me that she hooked up with her neighbor after 4 days of texting. And that she hooked up with him Again after I wrote the letter. I was in so much pain I had to leave work early and I decide to see her. When I got her house, I just held her and she cried, she then proceeded to say all these negative things about her neighbors physical appearance. I told my ex that I was already taking someone serious, she then tells me she doesn't want to compete for my love and wants me back. I asked her to at least try. She doesn't. She would just call me over to hook up. And me being stupid would do it. I felt horrible because I was really starting to like the new girl. So I decide to stop it. Then one night she decided to stalk my page and sees a video the new girl posted. I come out for about 2 seconds. My ex flips and theathens to tell the new girl about us hooking up. So I decide to tell the new girl everything. She still wants to stay with me. So it's been almost 2 months since her threatening me. And I've had no contact with my ex. And really taking this new girl serious... But I can't stop thinking about my ex, and How she won't even say my name, she is friends with my cousin and they aren't as close because of how much my ex talks badly about me... She is constantly flirting with guys even we neighbor that just used her and told her he didn't want anything other than sex. Why do I still care for this girl? Why do her comments and flirting hurt if I am with someone way better, physically, mentally and has her life figured out? ..... Sorry for the huge post... A lot has happen to me, this is a shortened version of it all.. I've kept all this in and it's starting to make me hate my self... Edited August 24, 2013 by a LoveShack.org Moderator
Balzac Posted August 24, 2013 Posted August 24, 2013 You must enjoy drama. If self hate cures thst / not so sure.
Author Ben_x Posted August 24, 2013 Author Posted August 24, 2013 I don't like drama.. And I just feel so confused. I have avoided my Ex for a month now, and I don't understand why I feel like I can't get closure.
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