DmxDex Posted August 24, 2013 Posted August 24, 2013 (edited) Where to begin. Was with my ex for 5 year if you ask her less. She fell quickly for me the butterflies and i liked her quickly. Relationship was ok, i had alot issues with depression and undiagnosed ADHD which i got diagnosed this year. Apart from that i loved her had feelings and liked her alot. My ex got pregnant at 1 and a half years it was accidental she forgot to take her pill. However i was happy and so was she. She had a miscarriage about 4 and a half months in. After that things where never the same, it effected her very badly and i think it did alot to me, never realised. Problem is she wanted to get pregnant again so quickly and i want her to get help. In the end i decided to get her pregnant after 7 months even though i wasnt ready i though things would be fine. When she got pregnant again things really went wrong. She became distant i felt pushed out was going through alot depression and anxiety. I wanted to be with her move when she bought alot stuff for the baby. I should of done more like put my foot down, but ended up not doing enough for her which i regret but feel it was 50/50 at this time. She got a flat when she was 6 months pregnant and wanted me to be in a job first, problem was i was struggling with my illness at the time and was very worried about not being a good dad and other silly stuff. Once my daughter was born i felt great and love for my ex became stronger. However 1 month she ended our relationship. She claimed she did it because she was angry at me, and lost feelings of love the same month which i think is rubbish. I went round for my daughter regular but had major depression and anxiety over it. I think i suffer a mini break down but fought through and decided to take all the blame to protect her. She decided to get back 2 months later to see how it goes. I tried countless times to move in over the remaining 3 years but remember her not taking me seriously. I asked about being a stay at home dad until i get sorted out i was doing therapy at the time. She was hot and cold with me throughout last 3 years. She cried when i said i had enough of way things are and wanted it sorted. But in the end in march she ended saying she didnt love me anymore and has practically blamed me for alot of the issues saying i didnt try to move in and was ever their for her when i was doing most of the running. she also said she was happier saying i know your proberly upset like and another talking about xmas family dinners like she was rubbing stuff in my face. She said things like if i hadnt of had the miscarriage things would of been different and said she should of got help like i tried to help her. She apprently has emotional issues from childhood and was on a dating website 2 days after she broke up. i found out and told her i dont want anything to do with her and that upset her and she said i have emotional issues i dont like being on my own. I have my daughter every 2 days and she sleeps friday. The breakup has hurt me alot as i feel i got blamed for everything and never had support or anything back from her, i did alot for her. She nows has a new BF and i had to find out from a friend because she seem them in town with my daughter. I txted her and she said i should of told you and she is in now danger. We have no contact as she has hurt me so much. We go through her dad at the moment. Im 27 and she is 23. I tried to contact her alot about my daughter and she acted immature and with a attitude. She contacted me when she wanted something and was nice. I would ask her how evie is today and what she has I asked her every other day how evie is and whats shes been up to and how she is and all i got was she is fine. All i got was her blowing hot and cold throughout the last 3 years. last 2 weeks we was together she was kissing my neck alot having sex and it felt like she wanted me. Sorry i edited this in so assume is belongs alittle further up. I had argument about this in the end to which she said you never has asked me about her which really pissed me of After i found out about her BF and not telling me i just had enough of been treated badly. So i dont talk to her. Never abuse her or her bf. Im just so angry, having mental health problems dont help, bee suicidal, and seeing a couselor soon. What upsets me the most is she proberly still thinks she didnt do anything wrong. She doesnt accept how much hurt she did when she ended the relationship a month after our daughter was born and her dad thinks the sun shines out of her arse. Breaking up with someone with a child is hard when you love them, but when you have a child and they get a new bf so quickly really hurts as you feel they are cutting in on everything you tried to have and got the blame for. Just hurting people. Thing is that alot people who get dumped dont like is why does that person become so cold and get with someone new fast. This isnt some relationship with no ties theirs a child involved and she is acting like i dont matter when im the father of her child. So she shouldnt be acting so immature when i have tried to talk to her only about our daughter. Im not making out im a saint i didnt always speak to her nice, problem was i have been angry over stuff and she didnt listen or understand or seemed like it was one way to what she wanted. I was on a med and it made me angry, and i shouted at her badly in public and my child for which i am ashamed of and told her how deeply sorry i was and adjusted the med to which i felt better. She took it very bady and it was few weeks later when she dumped me. She also made out like i wasnt committed and that i didnt want to marry her which was rubbish. I said to her early in the relationship i didnt want to get married at the time i was young. However when we had evie i said we not ready for anything like marriage as i was trying to sort the relationship out. Edited August 24, 2013 by DmxDex
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