PMA Posted August 24, 2013 Posted August 24, 2013 This post is long, but it is for anyone who is hurting out there and feels hopeless. The saying in my case is somewhat true. Now I'm not saying it will always be true but, " Once A Cheater, Always a Cheater. " same goes for liars. The same relationship that my last post was about, is the same im speaking of now. I had a hard time getting over the fact that he cheated. He still won't admit it. I dealt with extreme anxiety, depression, anger, and I started to get literally become ill from it all. I was slowly beginning to trust him. Let him have his freedom, stopped looking through his personal belongings. Until.... 2 nights ago I woke up in th middle of he night to see that he was still not home from work. It was 4:30 am and he usually gets off home around 2. Guess what was the first thing that crossed my mind about this situation ? " Oh my gosh he must've fell asleep while driving. " He does it all the time. No suspicion of cheating. Honestly ! So I call him and he didnt answer the firstbtime. i called him a few seconds later and ask in a worried voice where he was. He said he's been at work hanging out with his 60 something year old boss and hat inventory has come in and he's helping. Hmmm.... That didnt sound to right to me. This is not like him. He rushes to get home because he works two jobs and only gets about 5 hours of sleep or so ! I called him a bluff and just hung up. To shorten the rest if the story, still no sign of him 30 minutes later so I call him again and he said hes on his way. He got home at 5:30. No apology for having me worried, no remorse, no sign of understanding. Just guilt. He gave me the same bs story about inventory the day before and the same day. Said he always stays and talks to the boss ( lie ), and that's all he did tonight. He stayed and we argued because I asked to see his phone for the first time in a long time. He instantly became defensive and gave me an attitude. He hasn't acted like that since the first time he cheated. I searched but didn't find anything. But he got upset that I was still trying to find something and it got into a physical altercation. Choking, smacking, hair pulling, the usual. Police got involved, he refused to leave the house to get arrested and I am pressing charges. Oh and come to find out he drove a coworker to another city to drop her home. Found that it from the girl herself, she said nothing else happened. Right..... He won't even take me to see my family or give anyone I know a ride to my home city which is the same time of driving that he did that night at 2 in the morning ! I am sickened. But I will be fine. Its strange not having him around. I do miss him, but I keep telling myself i will find better when I become better myself, thanks for reading.
theonlyjuan Posted August 24, 2013 Posted August 24, 2013 Well you have definitely done yourself a favor
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