I still love my daughters mum

[Mr_Myo]

Hi guys im new to this forum so bare with me.

 

Sure I'm not the only guy going through this, but for a long time now I have been struggling to come to terms with the break up with my ex who also happens to be the mother of my daughter. We met in Dec 2006 and stayed together till June 2010. We met in a bar on a night out and after txtin for a while we eventually hooked up, from there the rest is history, but I loved her with all my heart, we were like best friends and had so much in common. When we had our daughter in Jan 2010 I thought my little family was completed and I couldn't have been happier, sadly just a month later I was redundant from my old job and went into a state of depression, with no stable job and a baby to look after times were tough and we had a massive row one day and I was told to leave. Hoping things would pan out she suddenly started going quiet and her lack of communication apart from when I saw my daughter there was strange, much to my horror and major disappointment she told my mum that she was involved in another relationship, this happened in Nov 10. I never saw the guy because she was worried that if I saw him my temper would get the better of me, but it was hard having to hear my daughter come to my home and mention mummyand the guys name. In the time they were together, we very rarely spoke. Communication regarding my daughter was done through my mum. In September last year I thought my dreams had come true when she announced to me out that she still loved me, and after they went away on holiday together she came back and they split. I was over the moon at the prospect of our family becoming a whole again, we txt for about a month and went places together driving our daughter around. We had a second proper date (meal and drinks in a few bars after) and I went back to her new house (which I helped her get) and we had sex. The next day I returned home thinking everything was rosey, however the next couple of months she suddenly went quiet and seemed really distant. Eventually she told me that night she just didn't have a connection with me anymore and therefore she didn't love me like I wanted her to. I was heartbroken, to the point I just sat in bed crying. Recently we have been getting on well as friends and making decisions together about our little girl, but 2 days ago we had a row and the top and bottom of it is, I still love her, she knows I do but she says she wants to live her life going out with friends etc, now I know there's nothing wrong with that, but I just wish she would give me the chance to try and make her love me again. I work 4 nights a week an go out socialising with friends at a weekend and alternate weekends I go away with my daughter to places, but whoever I'm with or wherever I go I can't stop thinking bout her and it's driving me insane! What can I do guys?! Sorry it's like an assay but I need to get this off my chest. Thank you for taking the time to read this.