thishatteredsymphony Posted August 23, 2013 Posted August 23, 2013 (edited) One of the last posts I made here was about how I broke NC and felt good about it. I stand by that. I don't miss my ex very much anymore, I've learned to accept what happened and I'm doing everything I can to move forward. But the last couple of days have been difficult. I moved from my hometown to be with this woman, and when we broke up I didn't feel like staying where we were so I moved back home. I thought being back among my closest friends and my family would do me some good to help me get through the trauma. Since then however, things aren't quite what I expected. My family is gone half the time due to work (I've been struggling to find a job since I came home so I don't really have something to occupy my time). My friends have all moved away or are in the process of doing so. I lost my best friend when she cheated and dumped me. Basically I just feel completely disconnected from everything and everybody right now. I'm continuing to do things for myself. I work out, I continue my drawing and graphic design projects, I'm going out as much as I can without blowing money since I still don't have a job. I'm not saying I feel like a loser (which is a HUGE step up from the kind of person I was like years ago, when I verbally self-abused myself all the time), but man... I just feel completely alone right now. I've had a couple dates and I just don't feel the spark. It's a weird feeling. I don't feel depressed or miserable. I just kind of feel... blah. Anyone know what I mean? Does this have something to do with my break up even if I don't see it? Edited August 23, 2013 by thishatteredsymphony
hellischrome Posted August 23, 2013 Posted August 23, 2013 It means that you are still sad, and bored. And being bored is the biggest problem we all have, I am afraid. Better times will come but now try to enjoy your family even in that little time they have... I wish I could do the same.
mtnbiker3000 Posted August 24, 2013 Posted August 24, 2013 Yeah, I think I know how you feel: http://www.loveshack.org/forums/breaking-up-reconciliation-coping/breaks-breaking-up/417045-not-sad-anymore-but-not-happy-either
Author thishatteredsymphony Posted August 24, 2013 Author Posted August 24, 2013 Yeah, this is true. I do feel bored half the time. I was happy for the first month or so doing all my projects and working out, it was all really new for me. But now it's like it's all I do. I need to find ways to meet new people.
hellischrome Posted August 25, 2013 Posted August 25, 2013 online dating (even just for friendship)? Meet up? Couchsurfing? These are the places where I found people, whenever I needed to
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